Stupidly texted him on Friday night

[kissingthecheek]

And I sorely regret it. I feel like I am at square one again. Checking my phone to see if he has texted me today.

 

I had his number blocked from my phone so we have been TOTALLY NC for two weeks.

 

Anyway, Friday night the NWS issued tornado warnings for our area. I texted him that I hoped he was safe. He texted back that he was at an art crawl downtown. Of course I texted back, "Do you have a date?" He didn't, but that's beside the point. I just proved to myself that it MUST be no contact; otherwise, my mind goes to those dangerous (hurtful) places.

 

We texted some over the weekend. He is on match.com and actively pursuing another relationship. In my last text I asked him if he was having any luck. His reply, "Define luck. Why do you ask?"

 

I haven't communicated with him since then. Please tell me that this guy is a heartless loser and I am so much better off without someone like that in my life. Please tell me I'll only have to hold the tears back a little longer before all the hurt goes away.

 

Should I put the block back on my phone? Just not respond to his texts? I am quite sure I won't be texting him again and don't want to be tempted to respond if he texts me.

[tealeafbud]

If you say he's a loser, he probably is a loser. You have to really believe that though. I currently have 38 reasons why I couldn't marry my ex fiance. (omg she just called while i was typing this!).

 

Anyhoo, the 38 solid reasons I cannot marry her don't stand a chance with all of the emotions of why I did want to marry her. But somehow, with each passing day, the balance tips towards the side of the reasons, and you start to gain more realization and objectivity towards the relationship.

 

Of course, just like my ex that keeps calling, the balance then tips more toward the emotion side, and hinders your progression toward full healing.

 

Your actions will determine your state of mind usually. Mine right now is of confusion since she just called.