redsweater Posted April 4, 2008 Posted April 4, 2008 Hi, Im new here and I registered to seek for help. I read some threads myself it seems that we all face similar things in our life. In recent days i spoke with many ppl and im still lost and cant find peace in myself. I hope some of you experienced what i went tru and could actually advice me. I was in long distance relationship for a year and 4 months. (Im a girl and she's a girl). I spent a summer with her together and went back for my studies. We had plans to move in this summer. At first it was great, more than great, just amazing wit her. Wit time it got worse and we ended up having many arguments. Tho we always tried to solve it all. There were short break ups and all that but the love seemed to be stronger and i always hoped we would solve it. I visited her last few weeks ago and we fell out. I tried to make it up (i cried too much , cos she seemed distant, and i was needy and lacked self confidence). She seemed to have feelings for me (tho repeated she doesnt love me anymore) but at the same time she wanted space and to break up. We agreed to continue. Standing there at the airport was sad. And she rang me many times while i was waiting for my flight and just after boarding. Once i was back home we took it slowly, but just a day after she texted me she wants to finish it. Im very emotional (that's what she didnt like), i overreacted. Started texting and emailing her. Making sorries for all i've done and havent done. I was feeling so bad, i just wanted to speak with someone but she turned her back. And told me she's changing her number after 2 days. I havent' heard from her since then (only a few days ago). The feelings are still very strong and im very hurting. In these days i came out to many ppl i knew, i talked out, listened to advice but most of them just told me to move on. And i still hope to get her back. I think i could still reach her in email again (tho i dont think she checks it), but i havent done so after she turned off her phone. I have tickets to her country in two weeks. I have no idea what to do, she told me not to come. It so hurts cos we were very close to each other, it looked like a real love, she told me in last email she has feelings for me. And we talked if we ever break up we would stay friends.. She changed almost in a day, emails and texts she replied to me seemed to be written by someone else. She is not an open person and seems to have a shield. As well I wouldnt think she's sure what she wants at this moment, but her answers shocked me and seems she was serious (changing her number so quickly and refusing to speak with me on a phone). Have any of you went thru something like that? Should i move on and drop all my hopes, forget the flight? Or should i fly over and try to meet her? Thank you xx
sedgwick Posted April 4, 2008 Posted April 4, 2008 I have tickets to her country in two weeks. I have no idea what to do, she told me not to come. Should i move on and drop all my hopes, forget the flight? Or should i fly over and try to meet her? I think you have your answer right there.
Author redsweater Posted April 5, 2008 Author Posted April 5, 2008 I realise she told me not to come. I realise she told me she wants to move on and put everything behind just 5 days ago, since then no contact. But what i dont get is that we had a deep, loving relationship, she never ignored and always cared. In a day she started ignoring me and cut off all contacts. Sudden and brutal break up. Thats what i dont get. It would be easier if i could at least talk to her, cos thats the way i am. But she decided to do the worst thing in my eyes
Author redsweater Posted April 6, 2008 Author Posted April 6, 2008 I'm pretty sure she didn't find anyone else..
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