NickP Posted March 29, 2008 Posted March 29, 2008 Wow it's been a while since i've been back here..bout 2 months i think. but i find myself suddenly in sucha predicament with my heart i'm once again LOST.. and this time the consequences could be really huge. history:i went out with my ex for 3 years and we broke up cos she kissed another guy..and she told me she might have had feelings for him..she wasn't sure.i told her i couldnt "wait" while she tried to weigh our 3 year relationship and her "relationship/friendship/who-knows-wtf-it-was" with that other guy. so i went NC since mid-november. she lived her life on for months without contacting me at all. for 1 month i struggled each day. but b4 yesterday, i could stand strong and boldly say that i din't feel for her anymore. BUT since valentine's day she's been emailing me, texting me and trying to get in touch with me. she tells my sister she still loves me and wants to try things out again. i've NEVER replied.. i picked up the phone once when she called in feb (bcos I din't know it was her) but have NEVER since. BUT, i watchd a movie recently.. "10 Thing I hate about you" .. yes i know it's the kind of movie that gets you emo and all that but i suddenly find myself searching again.. should i reply to her emails? should i give her another chance? she's claimed that her and the other guy only went so far as kissing..but WTF has she done since then? or even before that? i dunno if i can trust her.. yet i find myself feeling this cringe inside that makes me wanna grab her and say "yes i'll giveu another chance", but my head is telling me NO! i feel cheated.. so fkin cheated.. but should i try to 4give her and look past that? is she only after me now cos she feels guilty for what she's done? she tells my sister that she can still see my face (the face i had when she told me she kissed him) .. i've got my biggest exams in 28 days exactly and i can't *** them up.not for anything!! plshelp. nick
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