City_girl Posted March 28, 2008 Posted March 28, 2008 I have posted a few threads here about a man I was seeing since November/December. Basically he is cold and unemotional but I kept looking for something in him that I now realize just isnt there. I thought he had given me herpes and all he had to say was that it didn't matter what went on between us and that he didn't want me getting upset over nothing. Well I went through going to the clinic alone and haven;t heard from them so I am told to assume I am ok, I have always been safe so I am hopefull. Thing is I looked on a site we both belong to, a friends network site and he's been on as usual. I saw his picture and felt the worst sickening feeling. It;s as tho I am looking at him for real this time. I could see who he really is for the first time and I don;t want him anymore. I am finally over it after tooing and froing for months trying invoke some semblence of emotion from this cruel cold man. I wonder why I kept trying. I guess I need to learn that not all people care about hurting and using others, I finally see, the problem is his and not mine. If he came begging on his knees tonight I wouldn;t take him back. Yet only a few days ago I was pining. I wasn't pining for him tho I can see that now. To everyone who is still stuck in the grief of loosing a someone, please hold on to the fact it passes and the mists clear. They have for me, I don't think I even liked this guy I thought I loved. Isn't love weird
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