stuck !

[zebina1]

ive been dating my boyfriend for three and a half years. our entire relationship has been on its ups and downs as every relationship has. we've especially however had problems with past girlfriends of his coming into fights of ours. when i first started dating him he had contact with only one of his exs which immediately bothered me because he always seemed giddy to talk to her. that 'friendship' later ended but now another girlfriend of the past has suddenly appeared thanks to myspace and they've been texting back and forth for three months now. they both claim theyre just friends and we've had many many arguements about their friendship. he claims shes a lesbian and she wants nothing to do with him. he lied to me about going to see her for the first time since theyd last seen eachother and eventually that came out - then they continued to text, he's hung out with her a few times and finally i met her. ive seen her twice now and she seems to be nice...but ive had this gut feeling all along that something is up. he has in the past gotten defensive of her when ive been upset but still claims hes so happy to have me in his life. NOW FOR THE REAL PROBLEM....december is when we had upheavel when she started texting etc...the lie of the meeting...well...the other day i was just glancing at his phone and noticed texting to eachother. one said that he was busy for the night and said hed come by to hangout on wed. it's tuesday and he hasnt said one thing about hanging out with her on wednesday...AND i got really nervous so i snooped - went on his myspace and was looking at her page (which i too have access to...but ...) i viewed her blogs from december that were set to preferred readers only and in the two i could never read there was information about him and how she was so happy he was her friend and how he makes her smile...and on a survey it said the one thing she wished she could change about him was the fact that he had a girlfriend.......................................................my mind is racing a thousand miles an hour...she wanted him all along is all i can think and he denys this...though im sure hes read all of her blogs....and i can't help but to think this sneaky bitch is up to something....on top of the issue that i snooped and read texts and went on his myspace...what the hell should i do? i want to be honest but i feel like this is just going to cause more problems...am i crazy ? should i not say anything? i reacted on instincts but he always says i dont trust him....i feel like im on red flag highway! HELP IM STUCK!