beta Posted March 22, 2008 Posted March 22, 2008 To say life has been a bumpy road for me is an understatement. I left home I was very young, (lived on my own) and have gone thru a number of challenges in my life. Why is it then that I now feel like the world has come to an end? I used to smile even in the hardest of times. I've been crying myself to sleep for 3 weeks now and I feel to sick to eat (used to deal with stress by eating!...this is all new for me) I fell in love with a beautiful man. He fell in love with me. I was married (not a good marriage...but was staying for the sake of the children). We were in a LDR (for now). We're both grown intelligent people and extensively talked about my situation (children, geograpghy etc...) and we both agreed we knew exactly what we were getting into. We had an amazing relationship. Then something happened...not sure WHAT really. I was feeling more vulnerable (needing more reassurance maybe?) I mean, I was having a hard time with my divorce, dealing with being alone , and our date was now postponed another 3 weeks. He decided that it wouldnt be a good idea that we see each other now and called it off. I am alone now. Although I used to LOVE being alone (travelled alone allot, loved working on my own) everything seems to be about marking time now. Minutes are like hours...hours like days. My journal is rapidly filling up (with up to 5-6 entries a day) and I find it very hard to concentrate on anything else. I keep looking at photos and remembering our conversations...and feeling so damm lonely! Damm I'm lonely! Is he not??!!! I sent an email a couple of days ago...absolutely nothing. How can we go from best friends to nothing? No one is there anymore. I hurt my husband, I got hurt and now I am alone now...decided to read "A new Earth"...God I hope this helps....knowing that I am not alone feeling like this is somewhat comforting i suppose
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