mike5770 Posted March 20, 2008 Posted March 20, 2008 Was sitting on the window sill in my building by the street waiting for my parents when I saw her go buy..the girl I had been and obviously still am in love with for 3 years...When I last saw her I said I was sorry for acting like a jerk and she was really cool to me..but today she was so cold and distant when I saw her...She walked by and I said Hi and her name...she looked real fast without stopping and said real impersonal "Hi how are you doing?" without even waiting for a response. She then came back up the street coming toward me and I teold her I was sorry for her friend (who was murdered) and she answered me real fast without stopping again. Why the hell did I have to see her..she wiped out 9 months of progress and me thinking I was over her. When I saw her again I of course fell in love with her all over again instantly...She was so cold and distant..even though she answered me it was just going through the motion lip service. What makes it even more painful is a year ago on Sunday we were drinking together in the bar great friends and possibly moving to be more..she was touching me and laughiung at all of my antice like I was the re-incarnation of Chris Farley, John Belushi, and Sam Kinison all into one..we were the best of friends on the bus..and because of one stupid night three months after that great night when I said some regrettable things because I was drunk and jealous she acts like I am a homeless guy asking her for change..It still hurts after all of this time..I would have given anything just for her to stop and talk to me like the old times and laugh at me again..I HATE LOVE!!!! This girl has such a hold over me!
Cannondale Posted March 22, 2008 Posted March 22, 2008 Idk what to really tell you man. My ex still gets to me at times, I mean I learned a lot through the course of our rel. and break up. But I was perfectly fine being single before I met her, now it's so hard for me to make it on my own it seems, sometimes I wish I had never known her. Idk how old you are, but I'm young in my early twentys. My folks and older people involved in my life keep telling me that it gets better and the right girl for me is out there. I guess I'll believe it when I see it. I know how you feel though bud, just hang in there!
challenFL Posted March 22, 2008 Posted March 22, 2008 I'm going through something very similar. My ex-girlfreind and I have been split up since November. Before I met here I was very happy and it seems like whenever I get myself together we talk again and it throws me into another whirlwind. It doesn't help that we kept acting like a couple for awhile afterwards. Just like Cannon put it, you just need to hang in there. It's not uncommon. I think most of the time our mind wants us to think of the past and project into the future, which causes us to think about how things could of been with our ex. The best thing you can do is think in the present and project ahead.
Author mike5770 Posted March 23, 2008 Author Posted March 23, 2008 Thank you very much for listening to my ranting. I feel 1000% better today and she actually did me a very big favor. If she was nice to me I would have been lovedrunk again thinking I had a chance to be with her again like a big loser. After the big blow off I realized what was important as my parents came and picked me up then we went to see my brother sister and nephews and nieces. I am very blessed to have my family support structure. I actually feel a little sorry for the woman I loved as she has been divorced and was I believe thrown out by her fioncee and had to move in with her friends mom. She is an only child who just has her mom and her new boyfriend who she obtained while cheating on her fioncee..and her miserable friend who I believe she is bisexual with. I believe deep down she is a very unhappy person as she was always moody and unpredictable and to be honest pretty downright unfriendly. When you are in love with someone you look at them with rose colored glasses. She could never do wrong in my book and I loved everything about her from the way she walked to the attention she gave me. I wish her well and I hope she has found happiness...
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