g1976b Posted March 19, 2008 Posted March 19, 2008 I guess I'm going to give up. There are things I still don't get after 2 1/2 months, and there are questions I guess I'll never have answers to. She still claims to love me, care about me, miss me, attracted to me, etc. Apparently none of that matters now. I've done mostly NC for the better part of 6 weeks. There are logistical things where she STILL needs to get things out of my house. After that, I'll have to walk away. I've been purposefully holding back on dating and moving on in those ways because I'm afraid that will be closing the door to the past. I don't want to be stuck choosing to come back to my ex or stick with the girl I'm with 4 months from now. Obviously there's no indication that will happen except she keeps qualifying the fact that we're done "for now". And has maintained 'maybe in 6 months or a year'. I just think there is a HUGE potential to hurt more people in this and I don't want to do that. I love my ex. Even now through all the pain she's caused me I would try again. I just really don't want to have this come up again and either be faced with regret because she changed her mind too late, or the prospect of hurting another girl I'm with. For my own sanity, however, I guess it's time to move on. She can't love me or be with me in the way I need her to. Such a difficult prospect. I never wanted to give up on us. Now, I don't know that I have a choice. Time to discard the memories, all of the ring shopping info I'd done, etc. I just can't believe it's come to this.
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