xpaperxcutx Posted March 19, 2008 Posted March 19, 2008 saying that he came to the realization today that he was selfish during our relationship. He was so worried about maintaining the happiness he felt that he neglected me. Glad to see he finally saw his stupid little "epiphany" after I broke up with him two months back. I seriously have no regrets, yet he won't leave me alone. He stalks my myspace and occasionally leaves me a message about how much he misses me and wants me back. His neediness oozes out of every letter he writes to me, and I have nothing but contempt for his constant begging. I can't believe he even had the decency to write that I had needed him during the whole time we were together. I don't need him. I've been doing perfectly fine. I only cried once when we broke up and after that I never looked back. Leave me alone!!!!!
Jade 02 Posted March 19, 2008 Posted March 19, 2008 Keep on keeping on xpaper,seems like h has other issues too. Offer him a tissue. You sound happy keep going the path your on.
Sfbaygirl415 Posted March 19, 2008 Posted March 19, 2008 That's what I call Karma working at its best! Feels good doesn't it?
Author xpaperxcutx Posted March 21, 2008 Author Posted March 21, 2008 Here's the message he left me... I practically gagged.... just wanted to get a few things off my chest. i was having a conversation with Stanley today. and with his aid i came to an epiphany. see, i realized that i was selfish in the sense that i was more worried about losing the happiness that you made me feel as opposed to worrying about you were going through and about helping you deal with the situation before you. i loved you more then words can explain and i still do. never once has your image ever strayed from my mind. but i do know that i was incredibly wrong in my actions or lack there of. i know you wont admit it but you needed me and i was too selfish to see that and for it i am so sorry because not only did being that way made me lose the happiness i was so adamant on keeping but in turn i also lost someone very dear to me, not only were you the love i always sought after but you were also my best friend. and i miss that. i know that by now enough time has elapsed for you to have moved on and that deeply saddens me for i still feel for you as strongly as i did when we were together. god i miss you so much that it just brings me to my knees. i never once thought that a single person could ever bring me to feel this way. i just only pray that you could find it in you to forgive me and at least be my friend, not in hopes to re-kindle our lost romance, though nothing would make me happier, but rather with hopes that we can just at least have the friendship we once shared. im sorry for the length of this letter, i just really felt in my heart that these words had to be said and i pray you don't misinterpret them or take them as an annoyance. i love you kiddo. you will always have a home in my heart, no matter how much you may hate me
sedona Posted March 21, 2008 Posted March 21, 2008 I don't know your story at all so I don't know why you feel such contempt, but I think the letter itself is lovely.
vivrantflo Posted March 21, 2008 Posted March 21, 2008 Nope, the letter didn't seem bad at all.. However.... This thread can teach a LOT of people on this site a valuable lesson in NC, in which that breaking NC, pining for an ex.. and "goodbye" letters never work. They push them farther away. All those trying to enforce NC.. stick with it... cause if you don't, your ex may end up "gagging" at the thought of you.. just like the original poster towards her ex.
Author xpaperxcutx Posted March 21, 2008 Author Posted March 21, 2008 I don't know your story at all so I don't know why you feel such contempt, but I think the letter itself is lovely. I previously posted in the breaking up forum about it. He's 20 and still living at home. He dropped out of school (no HS diploma), no job, and constantly stays home playing computer games. I tried to help him. I didn't mind taking a 2 hr train ride to his place every weekend to see him, pay almost everything ( he had no job), and basically sacrificed everything I could to get him on track and hopefully into college. He had dreams, but wasn't ambitious about it, and he was too clingy and needy. I felt like I was being taken advantaged of, because he never contributed anything to our relationship. There were times where he would place guilt on me for not understanding his situation. All I did was asked that he tried to go out for job interviews and better himself. I couldn't handle it anymore. I can't mother him. He was too clingy and needy.
Author xpaperxcutx Posted March 21, 2008 Author Posted March 21, 2008 Nope, the letter didn't seem bad at all.. However.... This thread can teach a LOT of people on this site a valuable lesson in NC, in which that breaking NC, pining for an ex.. and "goodbye" letters never work. They push them farther away. All those trying to enforce NC.. stick with it... cause if you don't, your ex may end up "gagging" at the thought of you.. just like the original poster towards her ex. Absolutely. After I broke up with him, he consistently prowled my myspace page, and left me comments and messages about how he's missed me and wants me back. It only disgusted me even more to see hiim beg. I deleted his # and his myspace from my friends list, and I've also blocked him from my AIM.
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