Grace112 Posted March 13, 2008 Share Posted March 13, 2008 I continue to blame myself for starting the spiral that resulted in my ex calling off our wedding. My friends try to convince me I'm better off - I'm healthier, I have more people in my life, and I have the freedom to do more of what I want to do in life. I know replaying what I said over and over again in my head isn't going to change anything. He made his choice. However, I can't help but think had I not made one particular comment, he wouldn't have run to another woman seeking reassurance, he wouldn't have lied, and he wouldn't have been so angry with me. I made him think that I lost faith in him. I know that's a horrible thing for a a man to have to deal with. I should've let him know I would stand by him regardless. I forgave him in the past for cheating on me. I forgave him for trying to make me think I was crazy for believing he was interested in a co-worker. I forgave him for lying to me. Why can't he forgive me for saying something I never should have? Link to post Share on other sites
malaclypse Posted March 13, 2008 Share Posted March 13, 2008 I continue to blame myself for starting the spiral that resulted in my ex calling off our wedding. My friends try to convince me I'm better off - I'm healthier, I have more people in my life, and I have the freedom to do more of what I want to do in life. I know replaying what I said over and over again in my head isn't going to change anything. He made his choice. However, I can't help but think had I not made one particular comment, he wouldn't have run to another woman seeking reassurance, he wouldn't have lied, and he wouldn't have been so angry with me. I made him think that I lost faith in him. I know that's a horrible thing for a a man to have to deal with. I should've let him know I would stand by him regardless. I forgave him in the past for cheating on me. I forgave him for trying to make me think I was crazy for believing he was interested in a co-worker. I forgave him for lying to me. Why can't he forgive me for saying something I never should have? I'm not trying to be mean, but if your relationship was so brittle that one single comment of yours could destroy everything, it's probably a good thing you made that comment before getting married. Link to post Share on other sites
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