MalachiX Posted March 13, 2008 Posted March 13, 2008 I guess I'm in the mood to vent. I'm getting better with the coping thing but my longing for my ex girlfriend pops up in surprising places. Over the last few weeks, I realized that whenever I was working really long hours or getting up at four in the morning for a shoot, I'd miss her far more than I could imagine. It took a little while to realize that, whenever I'd do something miserable in work, I'd picture her waiting in bed for me and that would somehow make everything OK. I've always felt a lot of my most cherished moments were simply cuddling next to her during the night and feeling her head on my chest. The great irony of this is that we were in a long distance relationship for the last year and a half we were together and would go often for a month or two without being able to see each other. Even so, the thought of her waiting for me somewhere and the knowladge that I'd eventually be able to lie next to her again got me through things. I guess it was kind of the "happy place" shrinks tell you to go to when you're really stressed. I guess I really need a knew happy place fast as I've begun to realize I no longer have any other coping mechanism for those long or miserable days. Of course, I also simply really miss having her head on my chest. Ok, I'm done melodramatic.
AvgJoeDoe Posted March 13, 2008 Posted March 13, 2008 Mostly everything really. Except her mind guessing game..
sedgwick Posted March 13, 2008 Posted March 13, 2008 There's so much I couldn't even begin to list it. Sigh.
EC Posted March 13, 2008 Posted March 13, 2008 Him chasing me around the house begging me to put on socks.
dfreeman Posted March 13, 2008 Posted March 13, 2008 At 40, she has the young looks of about 30 and the body of about 18. She was her prettiest when she was laughing/smiling...too bad she didn't do more of that!
trulysomething Posted March 13, 2008 Posted March 13, 2008 I miss him most in the mornings when I imagine cuddling up next to him and him looking at me and smiling. 3 little words to start off the day..."Good Morning You" and a cheeky grin. I miss that the most...that and him worrying about when I started to cross a street or get to close to the edge of something and he'd pull me back slightly. He always seemed to look out for me...I still have no clue what happened, but it's just not to be. There are days when I lie on my pillows like they were his arms and chest. Sounds ridiculous I know, but somedays, I just need that reassurance.
iwish Posted March 13, 2008 Posted March 13, 2008 i miss kissing her.. playing with her , talking to her, going out with her, buying her presents, kissing her (said it twice i know, but i really miss it!) holding her hand, stroking her neck.. damn this is just too sad! I'm not going to miss her for much longer because all of that was the past and she isn't allowing me to do that stuff anymore... she isn't that girl, she's someone else..
Chinook Posted March 13, 2008 Posted March 13, 2008 I really feel miserable today. Kinda sad. Well, no... a lot sad actually. But reading this post kinda made me think. Do I really miss him..? The answer really is no. I do miss feeling happy, feeling important to someone, laughing with someone, sharing things. I hate coming home to an empty house. But do I miss him...? No. Not really. I miss someone. But I know I'm not ready yet. Not at all... so I'd rather be a little sad and lonely than feeling inadequate and unable to feel the things above with someone I care about but who doesn't care about me. The 'missing them' phase comes and goes a lot I guess. I guess when I look back, the pain with it doesn't seem so acute on some days and those periods get wider and wider apart. Some day it will be a lot easier. That day isn't today... but I hope it will come.
BalancenLuv20 Posted March 13, 2008 Posted March 13, 2008 After what she said to me last night...nothing anymore... some people say they miss when the person was actually a "good person"... i can't remember when she was truly "good" in my life it's been so long so no I don't miss that...... now I'm at the stage where I can forget about her or torture myself forever about what we "used" to have...i've been replaced i've lost her in every way she's toast there's nothing left to miss after someone says "i don't care about your life anymore."
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