LoveLace Posted March 12, 2008 Posted March 12, 2008 Seems my thread today won't fit just anywhere...confessions, maybe? I'm a mess! Dan's been outta the picture for a month now, and I think about him every single day, I tell myself he's coming back and think about the day I'll be in his arms again. But deep down I know better than to count on it, I know it's just me holding on to hope. I've on 2 different dating sites, and the only date so far was a joke...for those who remember my post about that! Met a guy that really liked me a couple weeks ago, and he called once, but I just wasn't very interested. Not because of Dan, but because I just didn't feel anything when I met him and I didn't feel very attracted, didn't feel it was a guy I could be "partners" with. I initiate contact on the dating sites with any guy I think is attractive or interesting, but they are the ones who never respond! The only ones that initiate contact with me, are (sorry to sound mean) very NOT attractive, down right dorky at that. This is not my 1st time trying this, I've tried this millions of times over the last 10 yrs, and I don't know why I keep wasting my money because it's the same disappointment over and over. I'm dying to start over with someone new so I can really put Dan behind me...but it seems it just won't happen unless I meet someone. I know this girl, she's just beautiful, and after a guy of 2 yrs dumps her, she's already got someone else that she is really into. It's no problem for her to just have a new boyfriend right away, if she wants. But me, months go by in between guys, leaving me with nothing but time to be sad about the last one; it so sucks. This was ok in my 20's, but now I'm 31 so if my dating life continues this way I'll never have the family I want. I have a full, very busy life and I hang out with friends and go out whenever my little spare time allows, and I always have fun with it. I don't "look" for guys when I'm out there, nor do they seem to look for me. That phrase "only when you stop looking..." well I've stopped looking hundreds of times, and the result is no better than when I DO look. I have bridal companies sending me junk mail all the time, girl friends from college sending me info "for mothers", my life is a constant reminder that none of this applies to me! And right now I still want Dan back so bad it's pathetic, I keep thinking of all the fun things we've said we'd do together, and I still want to do them, but I have no control over it. All I do is bust my a$% at work, bust my a$% at school, then turn around and there's no one there to add the fun that I need in my life. I feel so stuck here and I don't want to spend my life this way but it's as though the choice isn't even mine.
carhill Posted March 12, 2008 Posted March 12, 2008 In another 10 years or so, the "dork curve" will look completely different to you. Did you think Bill Gates was a "dork"? My best advice is to get over Dan completely, first. Then, open your mind and heart to the possibilities. Being alone isn't a life (or death) sentence.
Author LoveLace Posted March 13, 2008 Author Posted March 13, 2008 I'm sure your right about the dork thing, but in 10 yrs. I'll be in my 40's, my biological clock doesn't have that kind of time! My mind and heart is already open to other possibilities, it's just none have been interesting enough to pursue more, even without Dan to compare them to..oh well thx a million
Recommended Posts