Queequeg Posted March 12, 2008 Posted March 12, 2008 Shaking, shaking, shaking. Monday night I had some weird bleeding, big blood clots, etc. I went to the doctor the next day and took a urine pregnancy test and it was positive. They told me that it's likely I had a miscarriage. So, I took a blood test, which I won't have the results of until Thursday. I'll probably have to take another test after that. I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW I WAS PREGNANT. So, freaking out about that...I decide to post to another online forum about it. My ex knows about LoveShack, so I wanted to post somewhere safe. I got replies in my email, and I decided that I would tell my ex on Friday, after the test results came back. Yeah, so anyway. I get a phone call from him just now in the middle of the night. He tells me that he knows what's going on. I ask him how the hell he knows. He told me that he signed into my email account because he hasn't heard from me for over a week, and wanted to see what I've been doing. So, we talked about it. We're both pretty freaked out. It's like something out of a ****ing soap opera, tbqh. I could have had a baby, for christsake. Anyway, then he goes on to tell me about his life with this new girl. My ex has a problem with always wanting to share everything, and he shared it all. I told him that it would hurt me, but when he told me I was completely numb. Apparently she's slept with him every night since the 29th of Feb, (We broke up on the 27th) they've had sex, gone away on trip together, had a near death experience, and he got his truck broken into while they were away. (That's karma!) They've slept together. Every night. For over a week. HE DIDN'T EVEN WASH HIS ****ING SHEETS AFTER I WAS THERE. Omg...my hair is still in his bed. That they're ****ing in. Okay, I'm not like bursting out into tears or anything but I'm just shocked. Too much drama, too ****ing fast. My life has been an emotional soap opera roller coaster for the past month and I'm still not sure it's really happening. But, it is.....****. He told me he's here for me and that we have to figure this out. He says I'm really important to him, but we can never be together again. I told him that I still love him and wasn't planning on being friends with him, but given the situation, I really need him right now. He's coming over after work tomorrow to talk about the situation. I don't know how I'm going to be able to keep my hands off him, but since he's been contaminated by skankness I'm going to have to remind myself of that fact. (You can ignore the rest of this post if you want, it's basically just ranting) He told me this girl is kind of jealous of me...that brought the lulz right there. He also told me a bunch of other negative **** about her. That made me feel better, but he said some positive stuff too. He said it's all going way faster than he would have liked with her. I said a lot of **** I probably shouldn't have, but I couldn't resist. This girl sounds MESSED UP. Come on bitch, we were together for 4 and a half years, do you honestly think he's going to be that into you? Dunno...apparently I'm going to have crazy pregnancy hormones for a while....so that's...fabulous. I'm not feeling fierce right now.
sedona Posted March 12, 2008 Posted March 12, 2008 Go ahead and rant. You deserve it. Anger can be healthy and help you through this. And yes, I can only imagine that your feelings are magnified by the trauma of having a miscarriage and the hormones in your body. Good luck when you talk to him. Do you know what you want to say and what you want to get out of it? Can you change your email account so he can't snoop on you anymore? Any other passwords you need to change while you're at it?
Ssheena Posted March 12, 2008 Posted March 12, 2008 First of all, you need a big hug and for someone to put their arms around you and just let you cry and tell you it's all going to be ok. What a lot to get thrown at you at once. Poor baby. First of all, your x is being an azz and a complete jerk by telling you all that stuff. That is so cruel and he is only thinking of himself. You told him it would hurt you to hear it and he told you. He was completely insensitive to the part about you having been pregnant and having a miscarriage. His MO must be me me me me and then me. Change your passwords to everything he might know them to and call some friends who care about you up, heck, even us virtual friends care about you more than he does. I wouldn't believe a word out of his mouth and would kick him in the knees if I was near him. What the heck is there to figure out? He broke up with you, immediately started sleeping with some other girl (without even washing the sheets - grrrross). What do you two have to discuss? Why you won't be friends with him and listen to him talk about himself and all his greatness? That's a one sided friendship. You need some good girlfriends/boys that are friends to help you through this. I'd be all up in his grill, telling him to stay the f* away from you right now.
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