hopenfaith Posted March 6, 2008 Posted March 6, 2008 I just need to vent so please bare with me... It's been awhile since I have posted...I've been trying to keep busy doing "me" stuff and away from my computer (b/c of facebook etc.) but as I head into March, month 4 of NC I feel like I'm going crazy. Short story---- my ex of 3 years (off and on--friends for 7 years) broke up with me in Nov. and we haven't spoken since. My story is pretty complicated, but essentially we both have a lot of issues and baggage which he couldn't deal with anymore. He basically ended things by saying that he felt we shouldn't see each other for a while and that we could no longer "do things together". The night I left his house I haven't turned back. He IMed me once in Jan. I guess to see how I was. It was like a 2-sec. IM though-- “how are you? Oh you’re busy? ok bye!" type thing. Anyway, I haven't spoken, txt or IMed him since Nov. (with the exception of the IM in Jan.). The thing is this....I miss him and our friendship so much. I’ve cried almost everyday since Nov. and there isn't a minute of the day that he doesn't cross my mind. He was my best friend before we started dating and now.... I'm just so confused. My pride won't let me call him or contact him but I want to so badly. When he first IMed me I didn’t think much about it but as I head into month 4 i'm starting to wonder if that was his way of reaching out. He also has pride/rejection issues and is normally the type to not contact me until I contact him. I do want him back...eventually (once we've both had time to work on ourselves)... he is the one i want to spend the rest of my life with. Recently he sent an msg on facebook to a mutual friend of ours who was having a hard time being single he said: ""single-dom" I think single-dom has a lot of nice things to it. Most notably... free time!! It's easier to plan things you want to do, go out, gym, de-stress, concentrate on yourself, etc. Singleton is SOOOO much better than partner-dom! =)" I was crushed when I read his words and have not been able to get them out of my head. after everything we've been thru...and just a few days before we broke up he told me how much he loved me...I don't get it...is he over "us" already? Is all hope lost for "us"? Should I contact him first or at all? So many questions and no clear answers... After 3 months of NC, I feel lost more than ever...
SarahT111 Posted March 7, 2008 Posted March 7, 2008 I really hope someone with a bit more knowledge than me can help answer this! I feel we are in similar situations and I want to give you advice but I don't even know myself!! Im on 3 months nc aswell and life sucks still! Sorry to hear what you are going through Im with you
PinkRibbon Posted March 7, 2008 Posted March 7, 2008 No advice here either. It has been a couple months for me and I still feel miserable.
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