amythan Posted March 6, 2008 Posted March 6, 2008 (edited) Hi, I was doing great. I went on holiday with friends during ten amazing days and I even started to date someone - just casual and fun. I haven't tought too much about my ex during the last weeks and I was happy to move on with my life. We tried to be friends but I realized that I was not important to him. He gave lame excuses to don't see me the two times I was around (we live in different countries) and he never contact me or even give me too much information about him. So I stopped to contact him, not because I am upset just because I do not want to put myself (and himself) in an awkward situation. Fair enough. But yesterday someone talk about him and asked me how is he going ? We work for the same company and nobody knows we were together just very close friends. At this moment I felt so empty and I wanted to be sure he is doing fine. I sent him an email 'How is life ?' -yes, a mistake-, he answered right away saying very sad and bad news and I just replied 'I am sorry and hope you are getting better. You know if you need something I am here'. I really mean it. I know I will be always here regardless if we do not talk or we lose contact. Not because I want him back, just because he was the best thing I had in a long time and he will be always part of my life. He was not interested in have a serious relationship with me and I understand why. It is life. The problem is now I am feeling so sad and I started to think about him again and I feel like this nightmare is back again. I do not want him back but I miss 'the relationship'. This is really silly. I should be able to be completely over him, it was long time ago and I would like to be the person I used to be ... Edited March 6, 2008 by amythan
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