Author carrotgirl Posted March 7, 2008 Author Posted March 7, 2008 Yah. I'm riding it. I had a fleeting I wonder or two, like, I wonder if the gym membership got paid! Enough wondering. In other news, today I had some alterations done .... on my face! Yah, I really did! Carrot
ANGUISHEDandBROKEN Posted March 7, 2008 Posted March 7, 2008 So whats the deal here woman? Do you want/like him? Are you gonna go on spring break? Is he the one stringing you along or is it the other way around? One minute youre brushing him off like you dont care, the next minute hes cute and sweet. Seems like u want him but cant have him.....this is just me guessing....but youre not over this guy at all!!!! be it that you are the dumper or dumpee! This is confusing......
Author carrotgirl Posted March 7, 2008 Author Posted March 7, 2008 So whats the deal here woman? Do you want/like him? Are you gonna go on spring break? Is he the one stringing you along or is it the other way around? One minute youre brushing him off like you dont care, the next minute hes cute and sweet. Seems like u want him but cant have him.....this is just me guessing....but youre not over this guy at all!!!! be it that you are the dumper or dumpee! This is confusing...... Anguished, you've got as much insight as I do! I can say with a happy smile and no drama at all, I want him, like him and love him. Sure I do. If for some reason out of all of my friends, I had to choose just one, he'd be the one. Luckily, I don't have to make any decisions like that! A spring break holiday? It's too far away to think about. We're mutually brushing each other off. It's unpleasant. You're very right. I'm not over him at all. But he got abusive and I'm definitely over that. If history means anything, I can have him again. I'm not the dumper, but I don't think that matters as much as it used to. And it really is very confusing. If you have some more insight to share, feel free. I had to give it up. Carrot
EllaDerSpin Posted March 8, 2008 Posted March 8, 2008 Carrot, what did you do to your face?!?! Yes! What did you do?
Author carrotgirl Posted March 11, 2008 Author Posted March 11, 2008 Nothing major, just forehead, mouth, chin, nose.
underpants Posted March 11, 2008 Posted March 11, 2008 Nothing major, just forehead, mouth, chin, nose. I hope GD did not make you feel the need to do anything drastic. Just a little rejevunation I hope. Sorry to hear that he is living up to his name. ((hugs)) You two seem to have a cycle. Do you think he is going to come around again closer to this 'break' time?
Trialbyfire Posted March 11, 2008 Posted March 11, 2008 As another wise member once said to me "I want a relationship, not a project". Those words have stuck like glue.
MJTig Posted March 11, 2008 Posted March 11, 2008 Lord, do you enjoy this rollercoaster? Good riddance is right, i hope he stays rid and you move on.
Author carrotgirl Posted March 11, 2008 Author Posted March 11, 2008 I hope GD did not make you feel the need to do anything drastic. Just a little rejevunation I hope. Mostly rejuvenation. I like the changes to mouth and nose. Sorry to hear that he is living up to his name. ((hugs)) You two seem to have a cycle. Do you think he is going to come around again closer to this 'break' time? I haven't the foggiest. He's gone right off the cliff this time. Though, if history is a good predictor, yah, he'll come around again. I can smile at the absurdity a lot easier today! I don't understand this non-committal freak show of his at all. Carrot
Author carrotgirl Posted March 11, 2008 Author Posted March 11, 2008 As another wise member once said to me "I want a relationship, not a project". Those words have stuck like glue. You've always said it, and I've paid attention. I think I always thought I was really the project. A friend happened to mention the other night that dealing with obsession is never easy and he hoped GD would figure it out for himself. I was surprised he thought GD was the obsessed person in this relationship and said as much since I've felt more than a little obsessed in this. My friend's response to this was, Who is the person who keeps leaving and coming back? He is. You have lots of emotions and thoughts surrounding this but they are in your head where they're expected to be. Actions are what count and yours are steady and kind. His are unconscionable. I'm still reeling from that. Carrot
Author carrotgirl Posted March 12, 2008 Author Posted March 12, 2008 "Let's get some dinner later if you can make it out of work before I have to go to class." I feel like I got handed a multiple choice question. Are you: a) Happy b) Sad c) Anxious d) Fill in the blank _____________ I. Don't. Know. Carrot
EllaDerSpin Posted March 14, 2008 Posted March 14, 2008 ((Carrot)) I dont know if you had dinner with him or not.... I hope you are happy and calm and contented with/without GD.
Author carrotgirl Posted March 14, 2008 Author Posted March 14, 2008 ((Carrot)) I dont know if you had dinner with him or not.... I hope you are happy and calm and contented with/without GD. Thank you Spinders for your benediction. Yah, I'm happy and calm and contented and in the moment. Yah, with and without GD. This time, being spending time together turned out to be a very right thing. We had a lovely time. We laughed, we were our selves. There was no pressure. There was not one uncomfortable moment. Carrot
EllaDerSpin Posted March 14, 2008 Posted March 14, 2008 Anytime Well it is good that you and GD managed to have a nice time together.
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