carrotgirl Posted February 28, 2008 Posted February 28, 2008 Here's a gut buster! What did Carrot say to GD? I'm going for a slice. Want one? What did GD say back to Carrot? I'm too busy to spend any time with you right now but maybe we can plan to go away for spring break? Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha! Can you believe this guy? Carrot
Trialbyfire Posted February 28, 2008 Posted February 28, 2008 Then carrot says to GD, "I'm really busy during springbreak, maybe we could get together around Thanksgiving. Are you game?".
Author carrotgirl Posted February 28, 2008 Author Posted February 28, 2008 Then carrot says to GD, "I'm really busy during springbreak, maybe we could get together around Thanksgiving. Are you game?". Made replete with black widow avatar! I'm so over this boy's game.
sedgwick Posted February 28, 2008 Posted February 28, 2008 Whaaaaaaaa? He's too busy to have you bring him pizza and talk to you for five minutes? Huh?!?
Author carrotgirl Posted February 28, 2008 Author Posted February 28, 2008 Whaaaaaaaa? He's too busy to have you bring him pizza and talk to you for five minutes? Huh?!? No, it was more of the same control stuff. Just an inappropriate, imbalanced response to a simple question. Tri nailed it in one hammer down, maybe Thanksgiving.... He means well. He just has his head up his bum. I'm seeing this style on a lot of men lately.
Author carrotgirl Posted February 28, 2008 Author Posted February 28, 2008 Oh! Now I feel a little beeyotchy. He'd mailed me early this morning about how excited he is to spend break with me. I just saw it now though. I'm laughing so hard I'm attracting attention! It's funny. I'm not buying it. I know he means it. He always means it when he says it. Poor thing. Head from bum extractor anyone? Carrot
Author carrotgirl Posted February 28, 2008 Author Posted February 28, 2008 Just a wait a while and it'll change. Who wants a waffle? A nice toasty waffle? GD makes good ones. "I'll have to check with the office before I can officially say we can go somewhere for break." Oh lordy!
Author carrotgirl Posted February 29, 2008 Author Posted February 29, 2008 Oh. Another silly waffle boy update. I remembered to give GD the bill for renewing our gym club membership. It could have gone any number of ways I suppose. I wasn't expecting any particular outcome. Last night he came to see me. Oh wow he looked so cute too. He asked, Do you want me to pay this? I said, Yah. He said, OK. I'll send the check in right away. This is going to be great! Then he asked me when outdoor soccer season started. I think he must be a little out of his mind. Carrot
Author carrotgirl Posted February 29, 2008 Author Posted February 29, 2008 I stifled my laughter at his happy acceptance of the rather hefty bill that keeps us together as a couple in a weird paper sense for another year. I miss him. I'm seeing the smiling face more and the sneering smiling face less, and that's really good. I still had some of that nice NSA with a safe, distant partner last night. How do you spell relief? So what is my pal Spinders saying with those smilies? Carrot
Author carrotgirl Posted March 1, 2008 Author Posted March 1, 2008 F*sker. I let him enter my happy afternoon for half a minute too long and snotty beeyotchy GD came out to challenge me. Stupid crazy making shh*t. It's so old and tired.
Author carrotgirl Posted March 2, 2008 Author Posted March 2, 2008 It could just be we're in for a stormy spring. March started inauspiciously. This morning we were talking over a project and when I disagreed with one of GD's assumptions he arrogantly insinuated it was because I'd faked that portion of my research. I was too surprised to be volcanic at that moment. Later I left a message telling him off. He didn't respond. I can't say I'm surprised. I'm not even all that angry at him as much as I'm disappointed in myself for caring at all. GD is intelligent and he places a high value on personal and professional integrity so I spent an hour checking my work before it dawned on me that this is just more crazy making. Only this time he didn't make me doubt myself. He destroyed my trust in him. This is going to be hard for him to take back. It will be hard for me to forget he accused me of lying. Carrot
EllaDerSpin Posted March 2, 2008 Posted March 2, 2008 Carrot, I smiled only because you amused me. Now though, I am not smiling. Can I ask some questions? Wait I am asking questions, can you answer some questions? Firstly, because I don't know. What was your relationship with GD like before you split? Then, because I don't know GD, only your experience of GD. Are you having a positive experience with him overall? And lastly. What is it that you love about GD and your relationship as it is right now?
Author carrotgirl Posted March 2, 2008 Author Posted March 2, 2008 Oh that's nice It brings a smile to my face. You just amused me too. Can you ask a question? Ha ha ha ha Carrot responds.... The relationship with GD before we split, the big split? Much bliss. Even according to GD then. Even according to GD now. The experience overall, which I'm looking at as the whole of our relating with each other, is still tipped in the positive. Taking your last question to mean what do I love about our relationship right now? (And not two questions in one, What do I love about GD, What do I love about the relationship.) I love that in this relationship, as it is now, whatever it is, I can see where I have opportunity to work through my personal shh*t with him. (This is not the same thing as him feeling like he can work out his personal shh*t with me.) I worked through my anger and resentment. At least for now. I'm not walking on eggshells. I'm not feeling ashamed for my emotions. I'm not afraid to question. I remain true to myself, honest with myself, and with GD. I express myself without fear of losing his love. Hmmn.
Author carrotgirl Posted March 3, 2008 Author Posted March 3, 2008 I'm ready to put a close on the day. Tomorrow it's back to work and back to a GD free existence. This is what he gets. He chose to impact me negatively. Then he chose not to communicate. He chose not to apologize. I can't make him feel remorse. I can't punish him and that kind of revenge isn't very appealing anyway. So he gets .... nothing. Carrot
sedgwick Posted March 3, 2008 Posted March 3, 2008 Good god this is a tumultuous relationship! What happened now?
Author carrotgirl Posted March 3, 2008 Author Posted March 3, 2008 Good god this is a tumultuous relationship! What happened now? He hurt my feelings. That's what. And as I read that before hitting the send button, I realize I am virtually stamping my tiny foot and acting like a nitwit. Yah. I probably overreacted in a gross way. But what to do from this point? Nothing still works because he did hurt my feelings and I'm not apologizing if I hurt his back. Carrot
Author carrotgirl Posted March 3, 2008 Author Posted March 3, 2008 Is GD always this competitive with you? Yes, though to be honest, he's far easier on me than everyone else is. Why do you ask? Carrot
Author carrotgirl Posted March 5, 2008 Author Posted March 5, 2008 Don't sweat it Spinders Luv, He's just a tiny little prick. Tiny also happens to hate me with the heat of a thousand suns but why should I care? He has his problems. I have my own problems. Now I have one less problem. Good riddance. It was all just a taste of things to come I'm sure. NC isn't so difficult when you're both avoiding each other. We spend our days in relative exile. It's lovely. Really, it is. Carrot
EllaDerSpin Posted March 6, 2008 Posted March 6, 2008 Just ride it Carrot. I'm here, with not many words.... Sending healing thoughts.
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