superfox Posted February 25, 2008 Posted February 25, 2008 When he did dump me it was out of the blue. He was moving the relationship at a fast pace since day one. He introduced me to part of his family before even asking me out. He introduced me to his best friend, co workers, had me spend xmas with the rest of his family. Right before my bday he invited me to his aunts house over the weekend and made a plan for my bday as well. He calls me two days before my bday to confirm these plans then six hours later calls me to dump me. I took it well I kept the conversation to 15 minutes and said bye, and he kept saying he wanted to stay friends. On my bday he sent me a text saying happy bday and sorry for the pain he caused.I never aknowledged his text that day but after a few days I sent him a simple message on msn saying I receieved it and never talked to him again for six weeks. Him and I had met on a chatroom, soon after we met he wanted me to stop using the chat program even before we started going out. I thought I would respect his wish since he said he was doing the same. Before we broke up I realized he had never stopped using it, and the sicker part was that he would be on there going to incest rooms and underage rooms, as well as beastiality rooms. I was in denial and kept saying it would be okay and that he is still nice. I never even asked him about it. I knew certain things about him were not right. Like he always told me he cut people out of his life like poison if they did something to bother him or if they didn't follow his level of morals. He also had very few friends, and seemed to think low of most people. Last week I was checking my blog stats and realized his ip a number of times and that he has been reading my blog. I never knew this and it really confused me, like why is he curious, I don't write a word about him in it so it was kind of wierd. Anyways today I broke no contact and said hello to him on msn, I regretted it deeply, he stays on msn 24/7 so within minutes I just typed "sorry wrong window, im using a different program to connect to msn bye" and went right offline, he immediately blocked me. Later in the day I seen he had been visiting my blog again. Right now I am just so frustrated with myself...I didn't want to appear desperate that is why I took that hello back and just said it was a mistake - I didn't want those pathetic bad feelings in me.
Far Behind Posted February 25, 2008 Posted February 25, 2008 No offense, but I'd be glad he blocked you...this sounds like someone you don't need to be around. I know it hurts, but in the long run I think you will be much better off without this guy.
Pikaia Posted February 25, 2008 Posted February 25, 2008 He sounds like a controlling sicko and you need to get away from him. You need to either block his IP or make your journal private for a while. He doesn't deserve to have any more insight into your life. No contact! You will be glad you did.
Author superfox Posted February 25, 2008 Author Posted February 25, 2008 I know everyone tells me him breaking up with me is a blessing in disguise, because he was so close minded and judgemental towards me. And he always led me on then tried to break the relationship for a very minor thing like me not being able to ski. But I thought since he was reading my blog maybe he cared about me or somehow wanted contact, so I said hi on msn - I felt wierded out after and kept thinking of all the people who say that contact leads to more rejection and let me tell you I felt rejected all over when he blocked me....and right after he did so he went to read my blog which to me made no sense whatsoever. And I guess I still wonder sometimes what he gets out of that? If he doesn't want me in any part of his life including msn why does he want to see part of my life and it mentions nothing about him in it.
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