sedgwick Posted February 24, 2008 Posted February 24, 2008 (edited) So, the last couple of days have suddenly been better for me. I'm working on a new book/film project with a cinematographer friend and I'm really wrapped up in it. Yesterday I had a long talk with A (the cinematographer) about life and guys and work and such. She's having guy issues too, with this dude who doesn't call when he says he will, expects her to call him, etc. And it was so easy for me to say to her, "you're a really awesome woman. You don't need that." She said, "Yeah, the other night he told me I was too ambitious and I needed to chill out." She is nothing of the sort. She works hard and loves what she does, and she's good-looking, and she'd be a catch for any man. She's also 25, with a great body, and he's 40. I told her he should be so lucky to have the privilege of calling her! And then I talked about Joe, and A said, "Oh my god, is this guy psychotic?" She just laughed about the musician thing. She said, "You're beautiful and you're great. He has problems. F*ck that guy." So I went home and busted out a grant proposal and applied for affiliation with a nonprofit so we could accept donations for the film. Now I'm sitting in a coffee shop working on the budget and writing a cover letter to Kodak asking for free film. It feels good to be working. It feels good to know my life is just as important as his. I remember when we first met and he told me one of the reasons he was so in love with his ex (two exes ago) and not so much with his most recent was that the first was (besides a fiddle player) a big activist. Well, this film is activism on a large scale -- we're working with adolescent girls in inpatient psych treatment facilities and giving them Super 8 cameras and teaching them to shoot film and tell their own stories. Joe had the chance to be around for that, to have a gf who would be bubbling with excitement and enthusiasm and interesting stories, who would be working really hard to make a difference in the world, and he chose to give that up because I don't play the fiddle. So even though I still totally love him and miss him and would marry him in a heartbeat, and even though I cried over him last night, I feel a little better today. I'm doing something that is -- in my honest estimation -- every bit as important as playing bass in a hillbilly band. We may also have a celebrity who is interested in executive producing -- stay tuned!!! Edited February 24, 2008 by sedgwick
eagle5 Posted February 24, 2008 Posted February 24, 2008 Good on you sedgwick, great to hear when someone has a 'good' day. Good luck with the film...
Author sedgwick Posted February 24, 2008 Author Posted February 24, 2008 Thank you! Yeah, it was about time for a good day. After I turned my book in I went through about a month of not knowing what to do with myself, and I was sort of in a state of post-partum depression. Then I started working with A, and got excited about doing a collaborative project, and we're doing something I believe in. So things are looking up. I've realized I'm one of those people who needs to be busy to be happy.
spookie Posted February 24, 2008 Posted February 24, 2008 Hey Sedgwick, that sounds like an awesome project! Good luck with it. Glad to hear someone at least is feeling better today.
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