melusine71 Posted February 17, 2008 Posted February 17, 2008 I feel so fu*king stupid! I am so upset right now. E verytime I think I have this resoved somehow, I finally got a grip and decided what to think about this I realize again how the only person this is totally fu*king with is me. Apparently someone punctured my stbx husband's tires last night. I know, popular guy. Well he set me this bitchy little passive aggressive email, insinuating that it was me and how "odd" it was. Well, I don't know if any of you are familiar with my story but I have to have surgery at the end of the month and he is coming to stay in my house with my kids. Well, it pissed me off really bad when he accused me of this, and so I decided to call him. Bad idea. Once I heard his voice I just started screaming at him and of course he hung up on me. I am so scared he is going to bail on me when I need him for surgery. If there was anyone else to watch these kids I wouldn't want this ******* in my house. And it's like every time I talk to him, every time I get some communication from him at all, he hangs up on me or it just gets worse somehow. He was with some of his redneck trash ass frineds tonight, BOWLING of all things. And he hng up on me over and over again-- in front of them. Making me look totally crazy... prolly his new slut girlfriend waS THERE TOO. I make a total fool out of myself about him all the time. Bt I am just so angry. My son is two and he is... he gave me a black eye last night. he's HUGe and strong and he needs a Dad. Goddamn it! I want to be strong and confident and cool and it just never seems to work out that way. I always wind up boobing out and he laughs at me. I feel like such a fool, I loathe myself for being so weak. He's crap, really crap and when I talked to him I wanted to cry and he sounded happy. it makes me feel so despondant and like rally just-- jumping off a bridge or soemthing. I'm just glad the kids aren't here to see me freaking out like this. i want ot go out. I want to have frineds and drink beer. And I have these two adorable little weights, I can never get away, I can't just go have sex with random people and lie to everyone. but he can. he does. IT IS SO ****ING UNFAIR.
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