Snap22 Posted February 14, 2008 Posted February 14, 2008 It's 2 months today since my ex BF broke my heart, ripped it out, stomped on it and left me to pick up the pieces. I have been DREADING this day since day one, but every day for the past month I have felt more and more positive each day, I was frightened that valentines day might send me back to the horrible place i fought so hard to get out off. I'm pleased to say it didnt, im nearing the end of my working day and it has been tough at times, a few ladies at work had flowers delivered from thier partners (that was a little tough to watch),but I decided that I would do whatever it took to make me happy today. Here's my day so far: This morning I was driving to work and every song on the radio was adeclaration of perfect unconditional love, so despite it being freezing cold at 8am in the morning (I live in London), I dropped the roof on my beetle and put my favourite 'I hate him' tunes on LOUD, had a ciggerette and drove to work in style. I picked a nice outfit for today and did my make-up nice this morning just so I felt good. Got to work and had a right laugh, ordered my favourite lunch, ate tonnes of chocolate and relaxed. This evening all my closest friends are coming over, we're getting a take-away, watchin a movie and will have a ceremonial bonfire to celebrate the fact our ex's are total losers (I will be burning all the valentines cards he ever bought me along with all the cheap tacky teddies and pointless crap). All in all im feeling great all things considered. My ex never made an effort for valentines day, he would say 'its a load of commercial bullsh*t!'. That maybe so but it would've been nice for him to put that to one side and push the boat out but he never did. It was always me inititiating plans on valentines day, he just went along with it to make me happy i guess. In reality im not really missing too much! If he made a massive effort every year then I would feel pretty crap today but seeing as though he never bothered to pull his finger out of his back side, I can safely say it's really no big deal. Yet again, today has served only to re-inforce the fact that he was and always will be a complete and utter waste of skin. Just had to vent!
sandflea Posted February 14, 2008 Posted February 14, 2008 You go girl! Never look back and never look down. I love the attitude, and the outlook - you are well on your way, my dear. Happy Valentine's Day!!!
Issues & tissues Posted February 14, 2008 Posted February 14, 2008 My ex never made an effort for valentines day, he would say 'its a load of commercial bullsh*t!'. That maybe so but it would've been nice for him to put that to one side and push the boat out but he never did. It was always me inititiating plans on valentines day, he just went along with it to make me happy i guess. In reality im not really missing too much! If he made a massive effort every year then I would feel pretty crap today but seeing as though he never bothered to pull his finger out of his back side, I can safely say it's really no big deal. Hi Snap, For a moment there I thought we had been dating the same guy. Have a great night in with your pals tonight! As for me, I'm having some "me" time tonight! Just hope it's not addictive
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