miami45uconn Posted February 13, 2008 Posted February 13, 2008 I was doing alot better than i had been with the last 2 months of tears and the last 2 weeks have been on and off with being upset but overall alot better. I found out my ex may be interestd in some other guy or something. It got to me beecause some of the reasons she didn't want to be together were she didnt want a relationship, she didnt want to stay at the same college she was at now, and then she said she didn't want to deal with guys for a long time. I guess i believed her when she said she wasn't going to get into another relationship because i know she thinks like me a relationship is a waste of time unless you think its actually going somewhere. I started to think what if she stayed at George Mason and had a boyfriend blah blah. I just felt like if that happened i would have been totally lied to even more and further betrayed. I don't see why people leave someone who loves them so much for someone who knows nothing about them. She would put on a front and they would not see the dark secrets and everything I know, and that just bothers me. Because i taught her just about everything having to do with relationships i taught her how to be comfortable how to express yourself. I feel like if she is thinking about gwetting into another relationship she may just feel used to being into a relationship and is starting to cling to a guy who is being nice or finds her attractive. Or is 2 months really enough time to change your whole mind up. Like she would have changed her mind to how it was when we first met. Its like she had her fun without me for 2 months over winter break and now she wants what she had before but i guess i pushed her away with being upset or who knows. Im starting to not feel comfortable through the day if i don't feel pain. Its really wierd like i felt fine one day and then that made me think of her because i wasnt used to feeling fineee. This stuff is REALLY frustrating. The girl has a HOLD ON me, shs like a celebrity now. Shes perfect and i love her but she doesnt love me. You know shes there but you dont know where she is. You think of her and she doesnt think of you, im like a flippin groupie.
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