Alli77 Posted February 12, 2008 Posted February 12, 2008 I'm a sophomore in college. I haven't seen my crush since graduation. It still hurts me when I think of him. We were good friends growing up in elementary school and hung out almost every day. But in middleschool the thing happened when you couldn't really be friends with the opposite sex unless you're "dating." So then we started to drift apart. Real early, like in 5th grade he said he liked me and I didn't act on it. I guess I saw him as my friend since kindergarten and didn't think of him as being a boyfriend. Throughout high school we weren't close like we used to. I danced with him at a high school dance, but nothing materialized. I live in another state at college, he's at home going to the tech school. I can't believe I think of him as much as I do. I blame myself because I always did have a crush on him even though I never admitted it to him. I guess I feel regret about that. We were good friends. It would have been like a storybook two friends growing up together, dating and. then end up getting married, ect. Even in high school when we drifted apart I still thought of the times we spent together and I missed that. I’d see him in the hallway and I knew I couldn’t go up to him and talk to him like I once could have. When I’m home for summer, I hope I don’t run into him because I think that’ll make it worse seeing him. It’ll never materialize now because he’s the type of guy that’s staying in the smalltown and I’m leaving this area after I graduate from college. I want a fresh start and I can’t take him with me. I’ve never really dated seriously, and I’m starting to realize he’s in the back of my mind. I’ve always loved you Chris, but I never told you. There are very few things I regret in my life, but he's one thing in my life I still wish I had.
oh_what_am_I_doing Posted February 12, 2008 Posted February 12, 2008 Your story reminds me of a coworker's story. It's the sweetest story ever. She met this guy Nick in college; they were friends and all but after graduation lost touch. Several years later he was still pining for her. He called the college to find out where she had gotten a teaching job and narrowed it down to a school district. He made some more phone calls until he located the school she's teaching in, and voila, they met up again, began dating, fell in love, and got married. So it can happen to you too! The other thing I wanted to comment on was that you said it will never materialize because he's planning on staying in your little hometown, while you've moved away with no desire to move back. I'm guessing you're somewhere between 18-22. When I was your age, I felt the same exact way. I had to move out of my hometown and came down to the big city to go to college. I've been living in this "big city" for over 10 years now, have a good job, a husband, a nice house in the suburbs.... but we no longer want to live in the big city. I'd be happy to go back to my hometown now, after all these years. It's weird how sometimes things come full -cirlce. You might be thinking, "Oh no, not me. I'd never want to go back there" and you may be right. However, you also don't know who you're going to be in ten years, and what your wishes and desires will be then, because believe me, they will change!!! One more thing- you also don't know how this guy feels about leaving your hometown. He very well may be open to it. I wouldn't start the conversation up with that of course, but with time if you begin to talk to him again, you might learn that he's itching to get out too but just doesn't have the resources.
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