realgone Posted February 8, 2008 Posted February 8, 2008 so after weeks of being totally non-functional, sleepless, anxiety-ridden and depressed, i had a rare and much-needed good day and finally ventured out tonight to show my face, try to have fun, interact with the world, and ended up having to negotiate no less than four conversations about my breakup - running into her friends, my aquaintances, random people - everyone wanting information, wanting to take a side, not take a side, gossip, etc. i mean, it's nice that people appear concerned about me, and it's interesting that this breakup has affected others in 'our' social circle, but i guess i just wanted one night to forget about it, to pretend that life is normal. but it's not. and it won't be for a while. it shouldn't be, but it's humiliating and uncomfortable. i forced myself to go out tonight, figuring the more i act normal the better my chances for feeling normal, but it kind of just reinforces my instict to stay at home and hide. just venting.
82knightrider Posted February 8, 2008 Posted February 8, 2008 Dont let your ex control your life anymore. Its your life ,go out and have fun. She will miss out on the new you and someone will luck out on the new you .
PinkRibbon Posted February 8, 2008 Posted February 8, 2008 It is a good thing that you have gotten out of the house and tested the social waters. One small baby step at a time is better than non at all. I am glad you had a good day! Every one needs good days to get them through this.
Always Wrong Posted February 8, 2008 Posted February 8, 2008 so after weeks of being totally non-functional, sleepless, anxiety-ridden and depressed, i had a rare and much-needed good day and finally ventured out tonight to show my face, try to have fun, interact with the world, and ended up having to negotiate no less than four conversations about my breakup - running into her friends, my aquaintances, random people - everyone wanting information, wanting to take a side, not take a side, gossip, etc. i mean, it's nice that people appear concerned about me, and it's interesting that this breakup has affected others in 'our' social circle, but i guess i just wanted one night to forget about it, to pretend that life is normal. but it's not. and it won't be for a while. it shouldn't be, but it's humiliating and uncomfortable. i forced myself to go out tonight, figuring the more i act normal the better my chances for feeling normal, but it kind of just reinforces my instict to stay at home and hide. just venting. It's sure takes longer to recover when you have the same circle of friends. Vent away brother, it's good for the soul and accelerates the healing process. AW
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