notdoingwell Posted February 8, 2008 Posted February 8, 2008 ok lets start at the very very very begining. i met this girl at work and from the moment i saw her ( about a year and i half ago) i felt that she was the one well time goes by i very patherticaly hit on her with no luck then last year ( late jan) she decides to go to dinner with me ( this is about 2 months after i started 'flirting with her') we go have a good time blablabla ( this wasnt a date in her eyes) we keep seeing eachother randomly for a few months . random txt messages and such. more work on my part then hers. then july 3rd i see her. after we are hanging out for a bit ( went to teh mall) she tells me somthing along the lines of " i just want to be friends with you . i dont see you as anything more and dont want to lead you on" im crushed. but i still know that she is the one some where in all that time she leaves where i work and i see her a few times and then she comes back to where i work. anyways a lil more time goes by and she comes out with me and a few friends. night goes great. everyone feels insecure about how im acting around her. and some one offeres to drop her off at her house she rejects and has me take her home. at which time she throws her arms around my neck and i know things are about to get better. ( we hugged alot before this) well a lil later a friend of hers trys to fix her up with some guy. they go on a few dates. i see her again to " help her with home work" i see her glancing at my lips and kiss her. best kiss ever. kiss a bit more that night and she end the night with " im seeign this guy and hes older and more mature and so on and so forth and i dont want to hurt you and blablabla" at which point i kiss her again and she burrys her head into me and says " your making me confussed" i leave she sends me sometxt messages about how she dosnt want to hurt me and is glad we fulfilled our curiosity and how she had a nice night next day at work she kicks my foot and ( in hte cutest way possiabl ill remember tis forever) looks up at me and says " im not going to see him any more" well we start dating she says to me somehtign along the lines of " when i started dating that other guy i relized i wanted you. past FIVE ( or did she say few...) months you were the only guy i was seeign and when i went with him it didnt feel right things go great. i tell her i love her after two weeks . she dosnt say it back but kisses me very passionitly i say it a few more tiems over that week and she says to me " im sorry i dont say it back. your the second guy who has ever said that to me and im not ready to say it back" well later that day she ends up saying it while we are kissing month goes by we hold off on sex since she wants it to be special and dosnt want to have to leave right after . we end up goign some where for a weekend and yeah.. month later she has a dream that i proposed to her. she states " your the first guy i could see spending my life with" i ask her if she would say yes if her dream was real she says probobly HER PARENTS TELL ME THAT SHE LIKED HOW PERSISTANT I WAS she says it to me as well a few random tiems in the relationship well few weeks later we start talking about moving intogether. she actualy tells her parents that she might move in with me ( during a fight withthem) a few fridays ago we go do somthing. she seems alil distant. ( was going to propose to her that day but somthign seemed off she dosnt want to see me sat or sun ( i got out of work late not to uncommon for her. she went to sleep early usualy then on monday ( we were dating EXACTLY FIVE MONTHS TO THE HOUR) we are cuddling watching a movie i ask her whats wrong she says she will tell me after the movie afterthe ovie she avoids the topic i ask again what is wrong. she says " i dont think we are compatable we dont think alike..... not that we have to..were yound we dont even know what love is " ( she is 21 im 20) i tell her some stuff including how i was goign to propose to ehr 3 days earlier she ask "at the exhibit" i say "no at teh park after "she ask " did you plan it" i said no ( even tho it wasnt true. i was planning on reenacting ehr dream where i got on one knee took her hand then told her to "hold up i gotta tie my shoe ... what no one does that any more " (refering to the getting on one knee) walking a few more feet then asking her to marry me anyways. i didnt tell her that but after we break up i ask her for one more kiss. we kiss it seems ok. we kiss a few more times. i leave i call her 2 days later she dosnt call back i go to see her 5 days later on her lunch break. (ends up she took lunch early that day) i give her flowers she takes them looks happy i tell her i wanna see her after work . she says " cant we tlak ont he phone... ok fine" i leave she calls me a few minutes later saying how she dosnt want to see me and how she shouldent of taken the flowers " we talk i tell her how i feel i tell her i know i am negitive and seh dosnt like that but i can fix that. she says she has been thinking about this for a month the spark just isnt there anymore. and how we were just caught up in the moment. i tell her i can fix it i cna bring it back. seh says hse wants to move forwards not back and dosnt want me hindering her when in a few montsh seh trys to date someone else. she says in a few weeks or months we can be friends. well first off id like to think that every thing she said to me when dating was true.. i dont think she was lying at the time... i want this girl she is PERFECT . any ideas for winning her back im planning on calling her this weekend seeing if she wants to do somthing on monday . i will not talk about wanting her back or loving her ( may bring up some past events) and try to get that spark back ( depending if she says ok to seeing me) btw even her boss was expectign me to marry her day after xmas he apparently said to her when she walked in " let me see your fingers" making referance to a ring ( wansnt any.. wonder if she was expecting it. wonder if i let her down. she must of said something to her boss. look on her face and her parents face was of "omg" when i gave her her xmass gift ( a tiny ring bearing sized box wrapped in paper ) of course i got her an i pod nano to listen to when its dead at work ( she seemed to of loved it) anyways im not sure what im asking. i just need advice on winning her back and bringing back the spark during hte whole relation ship we only had one small argument ( wansnt even really an argument was more of a disscusion about how i hated the new guy at my job because he was making way more nad did way less and how i should of gotten his position. and her saying stuff aobut how i shouldent think about stuff like that and it isnt my postion to know how much he makes) so im hoping things work out.. my thoughts are still scambled and its been 2 weeks. i know she is the one usualy my first thought is the correct one with almost EVERYTHING inlife im hopping i moved her forward in life in considering moving out and such and that she dosnt go throu all tthis with every one she dated. anyways i dont know i need help
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