Restless nights

[serendip]

The last couple of days...I have been having restless nights. Last night I went to bed at a reasonable hour and I woke up in the middle of the night thinking about the ex. I haven't had these types of restless nights since last July(when the breakup was recent). What the hell is going on?

 

It's been 9 months since the break up and almost a month since our last contact....I've been doing alright. I have no desire to contact her and I'm not sure if I want to hear from her. So I don't know why the ex is in my thoughts enough to affect my sleep.

 

My friend suggested that it's because my birthday is coming up this weekend...and my birthday is also the day we chose as our anniversary date(it would have been our 2 year anniversary had we still been together). My friend said...once this weekend passes...I should be back to normal b/c there will be no more 'significant dates'. I hope my friend is right b/c it's a little upsetting that the thoughts of the ex are affecting my sleep.

 

I don't expect the ex to contact me for my B-day this weekend since I didn't contact her for her B-day 2 weeks ago. My friends are throwing a B-day party for me with good food and good drinks and great friends...so It won't matter to me if the ex doesn't call.

 

I just hope no more restless nights.

[ElvenPriestess]

I think subconsciously you realize those dates coincide. Your friend has a good point. Just focus on the birthday itself, like you say, the food, friends, etc. Try and not think of the other part of what that day would have been.

 

It happens though, sometimes our mind and emotions play tricks on us out of nowhere. It will fade.

[latefragment]

serendip, it's very fresh for me (2 days) but i've been awakening in the middle of the night when it is dark and i feel these horrible feelings of despair and hopelessness (about life in general). it sucks!!!! hope things get better for you after the birthday. yuck.

[s_n_d]

I used to have restless nights a couple of months ago and Im assuming thats because I had a lot on my mind (the ex).

Try to get your mind off the ex.

I hope you have an awesome birthday.

[serendip]

Tender is the night

lying by your side.

Tender is the touch

of someone that you love to much.

Tender is the day

the demons go away.

Lord, I need to find

someone who can heal my mind.

[realgone]

i put that blur song on a cd for my ex a couple weeks before i got dumped. bah.

 

i think sleep plays a really big part on how i cope. i didn't sleep for more than a couple hours at a time for about a week, would wake up drenched in sweat, panicking. i really thought i was losing my grip. took some sleeping pills and got about 7 hours in a row for the first time in two months and it helped immensely.

[serendip]

I'm just recycling some old emotions due to the post breakup "significant dates"

 

I think I should be alright by Sunday(I hope)

 

You say you wander your own land

But when I think about it I don't see how you can

You're aching, you're breaking

And I can see the pain in your eyes

Since everybody's changing

And I don't know why

 

So little time

Try to understand that I'm

Trying to make a move just to stay in the game back

I try to stay awake and remember my name

But everybody's changing

And I don't feel the same

[latefragment]

I have been still waking up in the middle of the night. Last night too. What is up with that? dreamed I was going out surfing in the dark with a different guy than the one i'm busted up about. We-ird. sleeping pills have helped get me to fall asleep, at least, thank god. I remember a time when I took 2 ambien and they barely fazed me. That was for a different situation, a couple years ago.

 

good luck till sunday.

Edited February 8, 2008 by latefragment