Just broke it off

[car2007]

I had a dilemma I posted about a few days ago: http://www.loveshack.org/forums/t142764/ I just broke up with my girlfriend tonight and I feel awful. I didn't go over there tonight intending to do it, but she knows somethings been bothering me for the last few weeks so I told her I feel a lot of pressure and stress due to my situation which is complicated and I have a daughter. I've been worried that my relationship with my girlfriend has come at some sacrifice regarding my being a good father to my daughter. I know that's not an uncommon feeling but I have really been struggling with it. So I told her and she was very sympathetic but wanted some assurance from me that I still needed her. She wanted me to say that, and I couldn't. I guess there is more to it than just my daughter, but I couldn't bring myself to tell her what problems I have with her, they are minor anyway I guess next to the more immediate problem of me worrying about my kid. So she told me I had needed her earlier in our relationship, what happened? I said I don't know, which I know is not a satisfactory answer but I really don't. I think I just got tired of the bouncing back and forth between happiness and worry that she, in my mind, became the reason I was so torn, which caused me to balk at saying I needed her. She said she was in shock, that she couldn't even be mad at me or cry or tell me to leave. She had nothing to say to me other than she thought I was a different person, that I was insane because I didn't place the same value on our relationship as her. I know I really pulled the rug out from under her, but when she started asking me what was bothering me, it didn't seem like a good idea to gloss over it and say everything was ok. Wow, I'm in shock myself I guess. Now the really hard part: we work together so I will see her tomorrow, Friday, next week, etc. How do I act? I felt so uncomfortable sitting there with her after we were done talking. I didn't know if I should leave. I know she was expecting me to suddenly say I was sorry, I didn't mean it, of course I need her. But I couldn't. She finally got up to get a glass of water so I got up too and got my coat. She just stood in the kitchen looking at me, and said so, your going to leave now? I said yes, unless she wanted me to stay, but she said no, she had some dignity. As if me telling her I would stay somehow demeans her. I was just concerned about her but I guess that's not my place anymore. Ugh! What do I do tomorrow? Anyone??