joeyku Posted February 1, 2008 Posted February 1, 2008 k... so now me and my ex are talking again... im not saying much to her cause... im scared ****less of her! whenever i see her face, my anxiety kicks in, i start panicking its kinda like, when you get jumped by someone, and they hurt you and break a bone or two, then u fear them for life... its like that with my ex, but she never hurt me physically, just mentally and emotionally is there anyway around this?
BalancenLuv20 Posted February 1, 2008 Posted February 1, 2008 God I'm in the same boat man. One second I felt like I am king over all her thoughts and now, I'm a scared little puppy dog that starts panting inside when I see her face. My stomach tenses up, I begin to shake a little, it's like my brain is sending a signal to my whole body that, "evil is hear and to be afraid, be very afraid. She will rip you apart and tear out your heart and soul like she has so many times already." I'm shaking a little thinking about it right now. I'm probably giving you a little too much info right now, but my ex moved on fairly quickly and the guy my ex is with now is supposively a walking Romeo. Popular, high in demand from the ladies, attractive, outgoing personality that mirrors my ex. Seems like my ex and this guy are a match made in heaven and I've unfortunately victimized myself to seeing their pictures together and the comments she's written him about how "he's her one in 6 billion." when a year ago she told me she would love me forever and I was her one in 6 billion. Makes me sick to my stomach to think about and this guy is someone who I realize I just can't compete with. There's nothing else to do except take a deep breath, be true to myself, push my ex aside, and instead of trying to keep tabs on her life, think about mending the holes that need mending in my FAR from perfect life and hope that by concentrating on myself i can eliminate the pain, become a better person, feel stronger, and learn to be happy again.
D-Lish Posted February 1, 2008 Posted February 1, 2008 If someone makes you feel so afraid.... is that someone you want to go back to? There is a difference between excited butterflies and outright panic and anxiety. The latter isn't a good thing. I am sure you have chemistry with this person, but chemistry doesn't equal love- nor does it mean a relationship will have staying power. Trust your instincts...Human beings are one of the only animals that ignore instincts and walk head first into dangerous situations. It's a product of developing emotion- which clouds logic and instinct. If someone makes you feel like that- she isn't right for you and never will be. I'd suggest finding someone who gives you the right kind of butterflies- not a panic attack.
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