Author Belkin Posted February 21, 2008 Author Posted February 21, 2008 Beginning of April, 3rd year students will have moved out and first year students will change rooms to get with their friends. Long story short, my ex and ****** are actually planning on moving in together! And it's just been a month since she and I broke up. That confirms it pretty much: she is VERY immature (and so is he, but that's nothing new!) At least she won't be on my floor anymore, good riddance. I sort of wish it will seriously backfire on them sooner than later, but I don't believe in this karma thing. But what I wish more than anything is to get over this and not care at all how their business turns out. She hurt me too much already for me to bother about her anymore (<- says the mind, heart still has problems accepting that!) In less than a day I'm leaving for one week of snowboarding, that's something to look forward to now I hope I'll miss LS more than her!
dfreeman Posted February 21, 2008 Posted February 21, 2008 Hey sarah and belkin, Hang in there and just know that although a lot of us may be handling it differently, we are on the same crappy ride as you are. Personally, I am inspired by the two of you - both feeling like total crap, but caring so much about helping out the other. Belkin, I am just sick to my stomach over what you are forced to endure seeing them everyday. Be sure to give yourself extra credit for any progress you make, because most people would totally lose it in your situation. The mandatory contact that I still have with my ex sets me back so far that I just can't wait until the last couple of meetings are over. With any luck, she will not be there Sunday when I come by with the truck to move the last of my things, but I have arranged to have a mutual friend help me and to lessen the likelihood of any personal exchanges just in case she is at home. I also have good reason to believe that she and I only have the final signing/quit-claim/money exchange left to do on the house. So, other than a couple of update e-mails from her about the timing of all that and the day I actually get my check from her, I GET REAL NC!!! Anything less than real NC and hard work to move on with your life, really does send some of those horrible feelings right back to day 1.
Author Belkin Posted February 21, 2008 Author Posted February 21, 2008 (edited) Yeah, we're cute aren't we? Two lost souls, helping each other out. :bunny: It's good to see LSers understand this situation, my friends sure don't... They're like "why can't you get over it and just be friends?" Well no one has said it explicitly yet, but not many of them understand my need for as much NC as I can get! Then again, they all got the NC they needed when they had break ups in the past... Seems like you're lurking quite a bit on LS this evening Dfreeman! I agree, it sure helps loads. Much better than annoying your friends who don't understand, have other things on their minds, and to whom you might say private stuff you'll regret later! It seems you're like me Dfreeman, wanting real NC badly. I'm at day 23 of "no talking or eye contact" NC, it's better than nothing but I crave for REAL NC! Which I'm getting one week of starting in 19.5 hours at most, it's going to be so good. Going to get as high on the rollercoaster as I can in order to be ready for the next 6 weeks after winter break! And as Sandflea wrote, Spring is coming. That means short skirts of course, but also more daylight each day. I don't know about you, but I'm very sensitive to light: I get depressed when it's too dark, always have all the lights on in my room... So sunny days can only do us good! Good luck to all, keep your hands and feet inside the vehicle at all times, and hang on tight! Edited February 21, 2008 by Belkin
SarahT111 Posted February 21, 2008 Posted February 21, 2008 Hey Belkin!! Ya my friends dont get it either!!!! They seem to think I should be over it by now but im faaaaaaaaar from that!! Im going back to uni in a few weeks so hopefully that takes my mind off things!! What are you studying at uni? Grrr that annoys me how your ex acts all happy!!!!!!! I hate it how they can do that with no consideration for anyones feelings!! I wouldnt be able to live with myself if I hurt someone as much as we have been hurt! And then the fact that they have the nerve to rub their new found happiness in ..... ok i wont get carried away with my ranting about how unfair life is!! Nway enjoy your break and keep posting when you get bak! Sarah!
Author Belkin Posted February 22, 2008 Author Posted February 22, 2008 Hey Sarah! I'm not really sure what I'm studying actually! Sort of general engineering... But next year I'm focusing on Computer Sciences, so that's specific at least! Anyway, today is my one-month-break-up-versary. Yeay! And I'm getting one week vacation as a present, how cool is that? I'm also at day 23 of NC, or at least of what I try to make NC... (swear word here), I miss her so much! I wrote it before, but repetition is allowed here so. It hurts so much that she could consider moving in with ***** so soon. She must really care for him It's not just the rebound guy she'll dump in a few weeks It really saddens me that she won't cry over me as I cried over her... When she breaks up, if she doesn't hook up with still someone else, she'll miss ***** deeply, and not me. And that just sucks.
Author Belkin Posted February 22, 2008 Author Posted February 22, 2008 Nothing to add except... This is my 100th post! youhou!
SarahT111 Posted February 22, 2008 Posted February 22, 2008 TOTALLY know how u feel!!!! I miss him so much also!!! After two years how can you not even shed one tear. How can he move onto another girl before he has even broken up with me!!! Honestly was I so crap as a gf that he never shed a tear!!!!!!???? This girl he now has didn't turn out to be a rebound either! Apparently he loves her! Theyve been together for over two months :mad: :mad: This is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo hard on me! I cant even describe the pain of him happy with someone else and not shedding a tear or slightly missing me!!!!!!!!! Argh its the kinda pain that tears lifes apart!!!! Is he a nasty person or am I just a stupid week individual whos over reacting? I just don't understand!!! How could he do this to me!!!?????? How could he post pictures of her all over his bebo and facebook a day after breaking up with me when he knew I was already on the brink of suicide as I was so cut up over it!??? And the comments he send her indicated he had been with her before he even dumpd me All memory of me was completely erased. How could he do that when he knew I wanted to die!? I asked him to stop hurting me yet he kept doing it :mad: Ahhhhh he sent other friends emails saying breaking up with me was a 'huge weight off his shoulders' and he was feeling much better with life already I wonder if he knows how damaging those kinda comments are to someone!! How could he feel like this when im devasted :mad: Its so not fair! I hate life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Author Belkin Posted February 22, 2008 Author Posted February 22, 2008 (edited) In ten minutes that'll be the last I see of her for a week. wow. Finally! I was wondering however, should I wish her good vacations? No, I'll stick to NC! Thanks LS for teaching me that at least! Edit: my mistake... she's still here... oh well, just a few hours left anyway... Edited February 22, 2008 by Belkin
Author Belkin Posted February 22, 2008 Author Posted February 22, 2008 Finally! She's GONE! These last hours were so hard, we kept bumping into each other as we packed our stuff and took care of last minute issues. But no one wished the other happy vacations, and we didn't have any awkward conversation... One week TOTAL NC starting NOW! Visual, hearing, olfactive, phone, IM, txt NC! When I get back, I'll either be over it or more depressed than ever... We'll see...
Author Belkin Posted February 23, 2008 Author Posted February 23, 2008 Talking to myself here, but I need to remember this: Hey, wake up! Guess what? she does NOT love you anymore! It's OVER OVER OVER! You ignore her, fine. But she doesn't care at all. You mean nothing to her now. NOTHING. There's only one person that counts for her, and it's the guy that replaced you. Do you know WHY she doesn't try to talk to you, excuse herself, REALLY try to be friends again? It's because she doesn't give a SH*T about you now! Why would she make efforts to be friends with you when she has so many OTHER friends that support her? Why would she be friends with you when she as a BOYFRIEND now to take all her time, DAY AND NIGHT? To her, you are now just a random dude, and she can't understand what it was she found attractive in you let alone remember how she cared for you! Really, when you think of them together and are sick, she thinks of YOU and HER together and wonders why she ever was with you when ***** was available all that time! She wishes she had been with ***** from the beginning, and never had anything to do with YOU because you are NOTHING to her. And guess what? NOTHING will come of NOTHING! So you can continue to cry and miss her and want her back, but be assured SHE has moved on, LONG ago, and there is NO way she'll come back. FORGET IT! YOU ARE ALONE NOW! ALONE! So stop thinking you are still with her, it's just a LIE to yourself. Wake up and see the TRUTH as it is! She LOVES ***** and doesn't care AT ALL about you, complete stranger now. IT'S OVER.
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