ALoversTwist Posted January 26, 2008 Posted January 26, 2008 I am about to express in elaborate details the relationship I once had. I know that many of you will be able to give me advice on this one, because this is my first serious relationship, first virginity lost to(with her to), and the first person I've ever felt like I was in love with. A lovers twist with a mysterious end. It all started July 14th, 2006. It was the most random event on how we met each other 1 year and 6 months ago. I dropped out of a christian academy high school my junior year and started going to a school about 25 miles from my house. When I met a girl that I felt an instant connection when I first met eyes with her. It was the ride of my life, and I'll never forget it. We knew each other for a few weeks and started dated. I like her right from the start, and then I started falling for her. After months of going through so much, learning about each other's deepest secrets, saying to each other those 3 amazing words, and spending time with each other smiling and laughing. Looking into each others eyes and telling each other our feelings toward each other. 6 months later we trusted each other fully and began to know each other on a much more intimate way. I bought her a promise ring as well to show her my commitment to her. I got to know her family, she got to know my family. Everyone liked each other and both sides of the family were pleased with both of us being together. Her mom was surprised that she was even dating because she said her daughter is so picky with who she chooses. We had our arguments. Her lying to me about something, and me getting jealous over other guys she talked to at school because of all the other ex-girl friend's I had cheated on me. My girlfriend was a very nice girl, and she wanted everyone to be happy, which bothered me because I saw her being nice to guys who I knew for a fact wanted to get with her. After a few of the arguments everything seemed perfect, we had gotten through everything moved on. But in a way I felt like she looked at the bad over weighing the good. 2006, 5 months into relationship. The first time I broke up with her was because she was too clingy, I felt like I couldn't breathe or do anything in my own time for myself or friends. We broke up for only a week and I couldn't stop thinking about her so we started talking and dating again. Our relationship became even stronger. I always felt so in love with her. I care so much about her, I always put her before me, I thought about her every second, I wanted to marry her, and when we first began to know each other more intimate she told me if we do have sex I would be hers forever. November of 2007 is where everything went wrong. She started breaking up with me saying that God told her that she should not be dating. (The thing I left out is, she was actually a very persistent christian, as I was too but I began dwelling in carnal sins. ) She also added that there could be someone else out there for us, and that we might not be meant to be because we are so different. I very confused and sad about this. I said to myself, "How could God, if it even was God, say to someone, leave the person you love." and Amy could not even answer why she felt like that was the deal. I wanted to know the truth, I don't want to feel like I'm being pushed to the side like a safety bind. I started questioning if she even loved me, if maybe for some reason she was getting bored of me and fell out of love, or maybe she dated me out of curing her loneliness(since she hasn't dated since she was in 6th grade, and she was a sophomore when I dated her) or someone to feel secure, and comfortable with. I questioned everything, I said if there is one reason you want to keep me tell me and I'll change everything, I'll do anything. We started dating again and nothing seemed wrong. Until December of 2007. She broke up with me again. This time on Christmas Day, when the other half of my family she had not met was anticipating this moment. She told me God has told her she shouldn't be dated, and that she shouldn't even talk to me because she cares so much about me it's scary. Again I was left confused and crying on Christmas day, walking downstairs trying to put a smile on and act like I was happy. She called me back a week later and said she was coming over to my house. She came over to my house (30miles) and hugged me so tight and kissed me and said she had made the biggest mistake and she was so sorry. She was crying in front of me and I said, "Even though I don't understand why you did that on such a special occasion, I love you so much, and I want you in my life." We started dating again, and some things went wrong... I started having trust issues again, at that time I felt like a yo-yo, like at any given moment she could put me back in her pocket, and then pull me back out and start playing with me. I started questioning if there was any other guys, and she promised that there weren't any. I trusted her and moved on. A few weeks later on Jan 22nd she told me that she never wanted to see me again, never date me again, and never talk to me again. I was so confused for the next 2 days, and then she gave me another explanation. She said she was so sorry that she said all of that, and she didn't mean it, she said she still loved me, and she always would. She told me that she think it we be best of us to focus on our education. Me in college, her finishing up her senior year in hs. And she also through the spiritual things that she thought God was telling her. She said she felt like if we kept dating and waiting to get married we would just fall back in our ways of sex and we couldn't ever do what God intended in our life, so we both needed to establish a relationship with God, and educate ourself for the remainder of college. She even made a promise to herself and me that she would never date or see anyone during college. I left her with this "I still have a place in my heart for you, until you break it, it's going to be there, don't leave me with false hope. " She returned, "I still have a place in my heart for you as well, I don't know what God has in store for me, and I can't make you any promises, we might end up together after we finish our education." The End. Please anyone that has experienced anything of the sort that can help with advice or similar instances. As of now, all I can think of his her, but the last thing in my head is her feeding me biscuits and talking to her on the phone and being in that friend zone.
Author ALoversTwist Posted January 28, 2008 Author Posted January 28, 2008 anyone have any advice? i talked to her recently and she said first we both need to build our foundation on god so we wont have sex anymore. and she said she was still in love with me but she cant date me right now bc she will have sex with me
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