Jamesith Posted January 26, 2008 Posted January 26, 2008 I think i let things get way to out of handing,I'm sure all of you have read my first post if not here it is http://www.loveshack.org/forums/t140809/ Well to get things straight first Me (James) her (Brooke) are seniors in high school.Known each other for about 6 months since she moved,Or friendship has grown in only a matter of months when all my other friendship took more like years to start for us being friends.Were best friends and everything and our friendship has gone through a lot but through it all nothing ever changes and we come out of it stronger best friends then ever.There is just something about her that i really just love about her and i really want things to change for us even though we haven't gone out or anything. I've gotten to tell her the way i felt about her and everything i was glad to get everything off my chest.The only thing that really pissed me off was what her friends was saying to me when he read my blog.Nothing in our friendship has changed,i mean if this friendship can withstand so much especially with me telling her my feelings.I'm just kinda disappointed in her right now i don't think that she has her mind set straight.Shes so caught up in hoping that this LDR work outs,I may not know this guy but Ive seen here last LDR fall.I really don't want to see her get hurt,I mean she says that its cool for me liking her but that she'll never be able to return her feelings for me as i am doing to her.I really want to know if there is a way i can get back to the Brooke i knew before she started changing for the worst. I really honestly love her still with all my heart and I want to spend every minute of my life with her.My heart says stay committed to liking her cause she knows i will always like her,but my mind says Ive wasted 6 months.I think she isn't really opening her eyes and senses,i really hope she opens her eyes and see what type of guy i am and that i will always stay committed to her no matter what.I mean a lot can happen in a matter in 6 or 7 months to come,I really don't know what to do with my heart and mind saying differently.I know i should stick with what my heart says but i have no clue. Do i stay with liking her and hope she opens her eyes and things between us change.Cause i know she knows that i will always like her and then she can be like hey i remember James was always there for me maybe he and i can work things out. or do i move on even though my feelings haven't changed and finding someone will be hard cause my feelings are so strong for Brooke.Ive seen what the world has to (meaning everyday life) and what school has to offer but her personality always sticks out way more than anything Ive ever seen before. Please help any advice given would be helpful,this has been on my mind for the longest time.I really need to hear from other peoples point of view and see what they think of this.Please and thank you.=]
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