Muffinness Posted January 25, 2008 Posted January 25, 2008 (edited) Well a few months ago, about 6/7 maybe (i've now forgot which i guess is a good sign.) my first love broke-up with me. We dated 9 months and i lost it to him. He said he wanted to stay friends and stuff so we did, a months or two after we ended up being sex buddies which i knew before and after STUPID but at the time i was willing to do anything to try and keep him close like most would probably do. Anyways, after we went to this gig together he kindda just stopped talking to me and deleted me off Myspace&Facebook so i blocked him on MSN to try and forget about him, occasionally stalking his sites, his friends who i use to be friends with too kept updating me with his life without me even asking which got really annoying, he now thinks i'm stalking him because two of my 'close' friends started talking to him&his girlfriend which is up to them they can do that if they want it's their life and my ex can think whatever he wants it's his problem not mine. But even though he treated me like **** i still can't help but love him and want him to be happy, i wanna talk to him again but don't know if it's best to or not? It probably isn't but like, i miss talking to him on MSN at stupid o'clock. Should i unblock him and see if he talks to me or not? I just feel really weird i can't explain it i don't really know what i want but i guess every college student goes through that i mean i don't even know what uni i wanna go to or what clothes i wanna wear anymore i feel so ugly even though people say i'm really pretty and stuff i just can't seem to accept it. It's so stupid why am i not over my ex? How long did it take you? (you=whoever has read this far.) I've stupidly said 'yes' to my best boy friend when he asked me out and i don't even know why proper i do like him and stuff i'm just scared for when we break-up i wanna be real close friends i did breifly talk to him about this but i always feel bad on people and stuff if i hurt then, which i'm more than likely gonna hurt him more, he's my first boyfriend since my break-up and it just feels really really weird. Will this go too? Blahhhhh anyways i'm not depressed about it all i refuse to let myself be depressed about it, life is too short i just needed to tell someone cause i don't like normally tell people stuff but i don't know any of you lot so that makes it better. I still love my ex. Thanks for reading this far if you did! xx Edited January 25, 2008 by Muffinness forgot to mention how long we dated.
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