jdeedee Posted January 23, 2008 Posted January 23, 2008 You might feel as if a powerful person is pulling your strings and, marionette-like, you have no choice but to respond. You could get quite entangled if you resist, until you feel so tied up that your freedom is limited. Fortunately, there is more going on than meets the eye. You actually have control, yet may be afraid of accepting responsibility for your actions. Once you see how you have helped to create the current restrictions, making the necessary changes will be much easier. I don't know what the necessary changes are. I want to move on, my head, mind whatever logical portion of self wants that. I am not enjoying being hung up on her, cringing when I see her for a moment every morning, wondering what she is thinking -- if she misses me, if the momentary glances in the morning even affect her in the least. ...but I'd be a liar if I didn't admit my heart misses, loves, wants her back so bad. In the past I've always listened to my heart, I've chased, crawled, begged, been friends, wanted them back and this time is no different. All that is different is I know I can't get her back like that. No amount of pleading will make her miss me, I am history to her. I ended it and she accepted it. I ended it and she accepted it. I ended it and I haven't accepted it. In the past they ended it and I didn't accept it. I don't understand the finality of relationships. I'm crying I miss her so much. I am a broken record and this sucks.
Author jdeedee Posted January 23, 2008 Author Posted January 23, 2008 Blah, the necessary changes must involve me dealing and coping without spamming thse forums with 100 new threads a week on the same topic Mods feel free to delete this entire thread. I repeat myself way too much.
NiceGirlcomeslast Posted January 23, 2008 Posted January 23, 2008 that is my horoscope today as well Gemini! It's my ex's horoscope too! Repeating yourself is the only way to get your head clear, I feel like I am going round in circles all day every day and most people on here seem to repeat themselves some what. I know when I talk to my friends I am always very conscious of repeating myself but it's because I didn't understand that just because I have thought a thought 100 times doesn't mean that I have necessarily said it 100 times too. I spam this place like crazy, I am cruising at work and have this on in the background constantly but you know what, I haven't burst into tears once since I started posting. you need to post when you need to and even if you think it's crazy post anyway. But if you really feel like you are posting too much maybe try the journal option on here, I think I will try that. But remember that people get inspiration from posts here, whether it's someone coping or just knowing that someone is doing or feeling as bad as you are, everything has a purpose on here.
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