miami45uconn Posted January 20, 2008 Posted January 20, 2008 Ive posted a couple times before about my X and I. And just getting feedback helps. However the jist of things is we dated for 2.5 years and we were each others world for so long. Until last novemeber she wanted a break and told me not to wait for her which clearly meant she wanted to break up. I idiotically ( if thats a word ) in the first two weeks bothered her and called alot and wanted to talk to her because i have had bad luck with friends and she has been the only 1 to talk to when im upset, so when that was taken away from me i got kind of nutty. She has since changed her number ( i didnt do this everyday I had a couple break downs and called into the night the first 2 weeks after the break up and then since only here and there texts of i miss u and love . And no im not a stalker i just didnt have a CLUE of how to handle such a sudden change in my life and didnt understand at all how i could be the love of her life to being non-existent. As her friend told me she wants nothing to do with me from the pain ive caused her, which i never got an answer to how calling was pain , annoying yes but pain i dont think so. ( and just on that note when there was times we got into fights she'd come to my house and open my garage with the code and try to break into my house AND call me like i did her, little hypocritcal if you ask me) The memories are really hard to cope with we have been to Europe for two weeks, st thomas, FL and have done so many things. She built me so high to just take it right away. So, i really dont understand why time has only made this worse. Maybe im still in shock, but how could i be after almost two months of us being broken up. I can only assume i am still in some long term shock id guess because of how she told me she wanted to be with me and how much she loved me and so on. Just move on like her is something im tired of hearing it isnt that easy while being in love alone. I dont sleep much, hardly eat and im just plain out tired of thinking about her. So i really would like to know is there some kind of mental disease for things gettting worse over time or ANYTHING that would help me get out of this hole that grows deeper by the day. And someone also tell me why my stupid dreams give my little heart hope because i wake up for the breif second and think what i drempt was real and then i have to face reality and it is REALLY devistating. Anyone going through this tell me what you think about tell me what you do, tell me what works. Ive gone out with different friends and hav done stuff but the later into the night it gets the more she comes to my mind and its hard to get her out. And tlaking to a girl on that level im just not ready for. Im searching for anything that can change my mindset change my mood ANYTHING please
sedgwick Posted January 20, 2008 Posted January 20, 2008 Two months is nothing. At two months I still cried every day and had trouble getting out of bed. Now it's six months later and even though I still love him and miss him terribly, I can go out and do things and I don't cry every day -- it's down to once or twice a week. It's all about time, it really is.
M2ZND Posted January 20, 2008 Posted January 20, 2008 You know...like Nike says. You just HAVE TO accept that you cannot bring your relationship back together. EVER! Sitting alone and pining over your lost love will NEVER bring her back. It is out of your control. You HAVE TO change YOUR MIND. Just try to look at it as just another chapter to your life. That chapter has ended and you are on to the next. The next chapter may not contain the same characters but it doesn't mean that it won't be interesting. It's YOUR LIFE. Make it what you will!
Author miami45uconn Posted January 20, 2008 Author Posted January 20, 2008 Yeah well thats a very long time. But i did think it was supposed to get better with time and since it has only gotten worse why?
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