carrotgirl Posted January 19, 2008 Posted January 19, 2008 What is it with perception of time? It all seems to go by so quickly and yet the happenings a week ago seem like a year ago. Then some other times it seems like everything stands completely still. There isn't much to tell. There are universes to tell. GD has been telling me more about his experiences the past few months. What it's like for him knowing that of all the women he might ever want to be with, I'm the one he wants to be with. It's funny. Just the day before he told me about this himself, I'd heard he'd been out drinking months back with, of all people, some business associates and partners, among them, my old ex from way back. GD told me he wanted to tell me back then but he was afraid it would upset me. It seems they had a good old boys night drinking and swapping fantasies and everyone spilled his guts. Anyway, he told me a couple of weeks ago. I was surprised he told me. I was surprised he thought it to begin with. I was surprised he admitted it to anyone else. I said as much. He said he didn't know what it all meant and he didn't know if it was bad or it was good but it was the truth. I knew that in my being already. I did. I knew it was true. It was nice to hear it from him and I just kept it under my wig that I'd already heard about it. Carrot
Author carrotgirl Posted January 19, 2008 Author Posted January 19, 2008 Things are good. I'm slowly feeling more and more like myself again. My weight is stabilizing. I'm still tired a lot but doing better with that. Where GD is concerned, I'm learning that my big stumbling blocks are still lack of consideration for him and a certain egocentric shallowness. He really does feel most of what it seems like he feels. He really has been having a hard time. He gets jealous and tired and second guesses himself and lots of other things. He just deals with it differently. We're both learning tolerance and openness. How is this for shallow? My biggest worry this week is about seeing the cosmetic surgeon. I'm really scared about it. I've never even tried as much as Botox. Carrot
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