Author JimMorrison Posted January 20, 2008 Author Posted January 20, 2008 (edited) Just to recap, things started to get a little ugly last summer. I got in a huge amount of trouble at school. me not having money, not having a job, started to aggravate her a bit. Then the fact we kept getting into a lot of stupid fights started to make things worse. The tipping point was that I wasn't supportive enough of her efforts to be going to the gym every day. This I suspect has a role in all of this, she already lost 40 lbs. I didn't complain or anything, but sometimes I'd question why she never came up to school all semster, or if she wanted to go to sleep I asked if she'd rather stay up a bit more. I shouldnt have done that, but it wasnt too bad. Then - we got into a stupid fight. She asked me to get her pack of cigs from the kitchen, which I obliged, and lobbed the pack at her. I forgot her cat was under the blanket and she got very angry and said I couldve hurt the cat and demanded for an apology! I demanded for an apology for her treating me like this, and it was going back and forth. Then I walked away, and she called me back. "Im glad you came back, because thats the last time you'll walk from me!" We went into NC a few days and she was angry with me. She'd start to call back and say promised to call soon. Then I wrote her a ten page handwritten letter, and drove down and put a stupid little xmas tree on her car, with a stupid little bear holding a note 'just thinking of you'. and some stupid ornaments. well the next day she called back really happy sounding. i treated her to dinner a few days after that. then it was her birthday, i got her a great gift. then she wouldnt answer any of my phone calls! for a week or two, I just wanted to say hi, thats all. She did answer one, one where I say "why are you ignoring all my texts?!' then she says she wasnt sure if she shouldve given me a 2nd chance so soon. so I write a letter that just lays down the facts. I tell her either you are with me or you are not. I cant just be friends with you. etc, I wont stop from moving forward- but I'd like to be with you really, and made her a great dvd. a real masterpiece I tell you! She asked me what I was doing for new years, and during the week, and I told her my plans, and she included herself in them. I told her it was up to her. Then she opens the present after I leave, gets real angry, and claims I shouldve never given anything, I shouldnt of accepted any of the present she gave me, I shouldnt of made plans with her?! She was the one who wanted me to come over for xmas then she gets angry that I did! She says she didnt need all of that during xmas time, deep introspections, letters, calls, pressure. Two weeks later, she is still very angry, and says she doesnt even want to be my friend right now. She hopes in the distant future we can be friends, and that I need to mature. We ended on a fairly amicable note, she didnt want her stuff back and I told her she could keep my belongings at her house. She sounded happy about it , because she makes this noise, a sort of sigh when she is happy. And we left it at that. So she claims she doesnt want to be my friend, but I know the mistakes I made, and I think she knows I know what I did wrong. I was her best friend for years. Now she says we could never be together again. Im not sure how she thinks dropping me for good is a good idea though. She said im most well endowed out of anyone shes seen, I hear from others that she is amazed with how well I listen to her, I always did fun things with her, Im one of the few in the area with a college education, and I alllways would drop what I was doing if she was in a time of need. she has a firm belief that I'll be famous one day. She always talked of marriage, but I was always aloof about the subject. I don't feel much heartache anymore, if she wants to leave, its really her loss. But she was great and I'm trying what I can. She hasn't asked for NC, but I disappeard like a ship in the night. By sending these flowers, I don't expect it to provide any results, except just a gesture. I wont be let down if it doesnt change anything. I would be let down if it makes things worse. I wont send them, because after hearing your thoughts, it would provide bad results. Im looking for neutral or positive results. Edited January 20, 2008 by JimMorrison
Woggle Posted January 20, 2008 Posted January 20, 2008 She sounds like a woman you should be glad to have out of your life.
Author JimMorrison Posted January 20, 2008 Author Posted January 20, 2008 This is the only time Ive seen this side of her from years. I guess your're right. And hey, Seaside! I live right by there! Usually Shore girls are cool!
Woggle Posted January 20, 2008 Posted January 20, 2008 This is the only time Ive seen this side of her from years. I guess your're right. And hey, Seaside! I live right by there! Usually Shore girls are cool! It's a nice town but sometimes I miss New York.
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