serendip Posted January 15, 2008 Posted January 15, 2008 It's been almost 9 months since my breakup and today was the first day I woke up and I didn't think of her. It feels like another lifetime that we were together...the happy times seem so distant and far removed. The bad times are more recent since she contacted me on new years eve wanting a reaction out of me but flaked out on wanting to meet up(she was in town...actually at a party down the street from my house). She might try to contact me in the near future since her B-day is coming up in 2 weeks(I will not contact her in any way) and my B-day is 2 weeks after that...as well as what would have been our 2 year anniversary had we still been together. For me those dates aren't very significant in the sense I don't feel the need to contact her. But I think it might be significant to her...since she contacted me on dates like christmas eve, christmas day and new years eve. I didn't respond until NYE which I regret doing now. I'm not sure what she will think if I don't wish her a happy b-day or if she will even realize I didn't contact her. But this shouldn't matter anyway. I might contact her in 2 or 3 months when more emotions have dissipated. I was cleaning out my spare room and she had left some stuff...I'm sure most of it I can throw out in the garbage...but there was this old teapot that she left. I think she got it in Japan when she taught english over there for 3 years...it might have sentimental value to her...not sure. I'll contact her to ask if she would want it back(I'll give it to her friend who lives here)...otherwise I'll throw it in the garbage. None of this stuff has any sentimental value to me...it's just her stuff that she left. I don't attach any memories to this stuff b/c it predates our time together. She'll always be in my heart b/c she meant a lot to me...even though she cheated on me. I know I can live with that since she was in my heart for 10 years when we weren't together(we found each other again after 10 years apart). Now I just have to find that special someone that deserves my love and attention and who can give it in return.
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