Lucky555 Posted January 14, 2008 Posted January 14, 2008 I am finally emotionally able to say goodbye once and for all to a guy that i was seeing and who is very manipulative. I am going to avoid him. He has been avoiding me when he wants and its not a relationship. I felt so bad for him because i was like hes such a good person and i deceived myself because i had became emotionally attached and HE has not. I am ready to move forward. I started out feeling betrayed, very sad like i did not want to let go, and then now i feel like it was never love and more so I liked the idea of him. However, I realized that he has many undesirable qualities. Didn't communicate No affection unless he wanted to see me then he would. he tries to take control over the relationship as in if i would talk to him or send an email he would not reply. I was captivated by him, i thought i would never meet another guy like him and i hope that i don't. I was so afraid of losing him and now its like if i don't ever see or talk to him again I will have gained because I don't have to deal with his Manipulation or his other unattached behaviors again. Like i said i was sad for a very long time. Hes playing me and hes not ready for a relationship and me being in hopes it sucked but finally over the past few days i have realized this is NOT love this is just someone who is trying to control me for his own selfishness. Hes actually been distant until he sees me and then he decides to get close to me. Its a Game of push and pull with him. Whenever he feels like hes losing me then he tries to get me back. I met a new guy and he heard that i had given him his number and he makes a comment that was not nice. I am happy i am no longer attached emotionally. i mean i might have some but not as strong and i feel like its better to be alone and seeking and be available on all levels for someone new who can treat me better. This has been going on for the past few months. It feel good to not wonder who he is with or what he is doing or just wondering what is happening in this whole situation. I just don't care anymore and the fact i can accept that he can be with someone else and i am not jealous and i am not upset is great.
Recommended Posts