stampdaddy Posted January 13, 2008 Posted January 13, 2008 My Pillow "Envelop me, in your soft comfort. My eyes closed, your gentle caress Soothes my lonely soul, and carries my thoughts to a bed of contentment. Completely and lovingly safe, I lay in your sweet embrace Longing desperately to kiss your precious face" I have stopped hold her this week, slowly, I am disconnecting, and it really hurts thinking that after giving all of my everything, loving her so completely for 3 1/2 years, all I have been left with is a $10 f***ing pillow.....
Author stampdaddy Posted January 13, 2008 Author Posted January 13, 2008 meant to say, I have stopped holding her this week... hard to type through the tears
OpenBook Posted January 13, 2008 Posted January 13, 2008 My Pillow "Envelop me, in your soft comfort. My eyes closed, your gentle caress Soothes my lonely soul, and carries my thoughts to a bed of contentment. Completely and lovingly safe, I lay in your sweet embrace Longing desperately to kiss your precious face" I have stopped hold her this week, slowly, I am disconnecting, and it really hurts thinking that after giving all of my everything, loving her so completely for 3 1/2 years, all I have been left with is a $10 f***ing pillow..... Stampdaddy, only those of us who have really truly been in love - and lost it all - can relate to your anguish right now. Just know that we're out there... you're not alone in this. (((Hugs))) -OpenBook
Lyssa Posted January 13, 2008 Posted January 13, 2008 Stampdaddy, only those of us who have really truly been in love - and lost it all - can relate to your anguish right now. Just know that we're out there... you're not alone in this. (((Hugs))) -OpenBook Yes, I agree and you will pull through this... [[stamp]]
justice Posted January 13, 2008 Posted January 13, 2008 Just focus on getting yourself stronger and better than ever before. You seem like a decent sort. And it shows. Next thing you know you'll be punching the heck outta that ole pillow, then putting it behind you where it belongs. Hugs.
Gwyneth Posted January 15, 2008 Posted January 15, 2008 Just focus on getting yourself stronger and better than ever before. You seem like a decent sort. And it shows. Next thing you know you'll be punching the heck outta that ole pillow, then putting it behind you where it belongs. Hugs. When I was in college I took an acting course. One of the girls in my class had an assignment to punch a pillow telling her "father" how much she hates him for hurting her. This was all acted out but she did it well, and the girl was crying because punching that pillow Really helped her to act out how angry she was about her "father." A part of me believe she was thinking about someone else while she was doing this. Punching that pillow may Really help you at this point. It's the one thing you have, and it's punchable. Beat it until the cotton or feathers inside of it scatter about.
Owl Posted January 15, 2008 Posted January 15, 2008 Hey Stamp...what are the chances of you taking some time off work, and taking a vacation to get out of the area where you're at for a while? A complete 'break' from the whole environment...to let you come back with a fresh perspective in a week or two?
Author stampdaddy Posted January 16, 2008 Author Posted January 16, 2008 Hey Stamp...what are the chances of you taking some time off work, and taking a vacation to get out of the area where you're at for a while? A complete 'break' from the whole environment...to let you come back with a fresh perspective in a week or two? That's a good idea, my friend.. Maybe I need to go play some golf somewhere, Palm Springs sounds good.... Can we put together a 4 some??
whichwayisup Posted January 16, 2008 Posted January 16, 2008 ((SD)) Excellent suggestion by Owl. Definately make plans to go away for afew weeks, it'll do you good, let alone get away somewhere warm and out of the winter cold. Can we put together a 4 some?? hehe..
Chrome Barracuda Posted January 16, 2008 Posted January 16, 2008 There's a whole bunch of women out here. That arent deceptive, Who are not cheaters, Who will build something with you. Who wont use you and lower your self respect. That's the keyword of the millinium: Self Respect.
Owl Posted January 16, 2008 Posted January 16, 2008 I'm a horrible golfer, Stamp. Its frightening, really! But thanks for the offer! But I do hope you get the chance to take some time out for yourself...step a way for awhile, get your focus back and your head on straight.
Author stampdaddy Posted January 16, 2008 Author Posted January 16, 2008 I'm a horrible golfer, Stamp. Its frightening, really! But thanks for the offer! But I do hope you get the chance to take some time out for yourself...step a way for awhile, get your focus back and your head on straight. Thanks again Owl... I'll get there
Meaplus3 Posted January 16, 2008 Posted January 16, 2008 My Pillow "Envelop me, in your soft comfort. My eyes closed, your gentle caress Soothes my lonely soul, and carries my thoughts to a bed of contentment. Completely and lovingly safe, I lay in your sweet embrace Longing desperately to kiss your precious face" I have stopped hold her this week, slowly, I am disconnecting, and it really hurts thinking that after giving all of my everything, loving her so completely for 3 1/2 years, all I have been left with is a $10 f***ing pillow..... Stamp, I feel for ya...Been there! It takes time for hurt to go away, you just need to work through it as best you can.... I had a pillow I used to hang onto while in an ea with mm..... Needless to say the pillow is now in the trash! Take some time for yourself, focus on just you! It does get better! ((((Hug's)))) AP:)
BetrayedMM Posted January 16, 2008 Posted January 16, 2008 Under no circumstances should I be feeling sympathy towards you, yet your post just literally brought me to tears thinking about my wife. Letting go sucks, and I really miss holding her.
Author stampdaddy Posted January 16, 2008 Author Posted January 16, 2008 Under no circumstances should I be feeling sympathy towards you, yet your post just literally brought me to tears thinking about my wife. Letting go sucks, and I really miss holding her. I am sorry, my friend.....
BetrayedMM Posted January 18, 2008 Posted January 18, 2008 I apologize for dumping that in your lap. I really didn't expect any post, hell, any combination of words imaginable to have such a strong effect on me like that. It brought to the surface a bizarre combination of emotions I didn't know was even possible. Actually had me kicking myself for feeling that way... weird!
Author stampdaddy Posted January 18, 2008 Author Posted January 18, 2008 I apologize for dumping that in your lap. I really didn't expect any post, hell, any combination of words imaginable to have such a strong effect on me like that. It brought to the surface a bizarre combination of emotions I didn't know was even possible. Actually had me kicking myself for feeling that way... weird! That is what we are ALL here for... I am sorry for what you have gone through...
BetrayedMM Posted January 18, 2008 Posted January 18, 2008 Yeah, but you're on the other side of the fence. The 'enemy' so to speak. I never expected to relate to someone in your situation. Kinda freaked me out. When I posted that, the last thing in the world I wanted to imagine was them feeling the way I do. However, I know for a FACT they couldn't care less about her. They are both serial philanderers. You are not. Makes it hard to hate you. I should, and now I don't. Ugh.
reboot Posted January 18, 2008 Posted January 18, 2008 Yeah, but you're on the other side of the fence. The 'enemy' so to speak. I never expected to relate to someone in your situation. Kinda freaked me out.It's ok, I found myself liking stamp too. We'll both burn in hell for it I guess.
Author stampdaddy Posted January 18, 2008 Author Posted January 18, 2008 It's ok, I found myself liking stamp too. We'll both burn in hell for it I guess. Thanks to both of you for keeping "open hearts and minds", towards ME.....
Author stampdaddy Posted January 24, 2008 Author Posted January 24, 2008 I am still holding my pillow... A beautiful poem, none the less... I have more.
Owl Posted January 24, 2008 Posted January 24, 2008 Stop holding your pillow. Get out of bed, leave the pillow alone, and go do something. Anything but contacting MW, of course. Again...what are you doing for yourself? How are you helping yourself let this go??? What are you doing to get your mind OFF of what's been, and back on what is? Who is your support system right now?
Meaplus3 Posted January 24, 2008 Posted January 24, 2008 Thanks to both of you for keeping "open hearts and minds", towards ME..... Add me to your list Stamp, cause I think your great! Time's will get better for you, I know they will. AP:)
Blue Eyed Brain Posted January 24, 2008 Posted January 24, 2008 I just got out of an EA and it was hard and easy at the same time. I compartmentalized and used my energy towards other things to not think of the EA. I am 97% over it. And I feel great. You will be too! Hang in there.....
BetrayedMM Posted January 25, 2008 Posted January 25, 2008 Man, a pillow is a lousy surrogate woman. Owl is right, you should get out and do things. One thing I found that REALLY helps is lots and lots of physical activity. Maybe join a gym, chop wood, dig a hole, climb a mountain, just make sure it's strenuous, vigorous, and leaves you panting. It will help you get a good night's sleep, and (believe it or not)allow you to think more clearly.
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