kirikat Posted January 13, 2008 Posted January 13, 2008 I woke up this morning, and I found myself to be "done" - my mind wandered, as it habitiually does, to the object of my affection... and I felt nothing. No anger, no sadness, no sudden rush of love infused chemicals.... No hope that he will come to his senses, no endless dialogue between us in my head, no replaying of the scenes, good or bad. Nothing but a faint feeling of annoyance. Gosh, I hope this lasts. Id kind of like him out of my head for good.
sedgwick Posted January 13, 2008 Posted January 13, 2008 Go you!! How long has it been since you broke up? I, too, woke up this morning in a much better mood. Perhaps it's because the weather has been sh*t for the past few days and today it's sunny. I got up and went grocery shopping and bought cleaning supplies so I can give my apartment a good scrubbing. (mmm orange-oil floor cleaner, heh.) I've been feeling so depressed and hopeless the past few days, and sleeping too much and dreaming of him. Last night I FINALLY didn't dream about him for the first time in at least a week. I still love him and miss him, but at least I'm feeling a little more functional today. I hope eventually I'll wake up one day and the rock in my chest will be gone.
s_n_d Posted January 13, 2008 Posted January 13, 2008 I am feeling much better today, as well. Today is four days of NC for me. Longest Ive ever been able to maintain Nc.. It seems to only get easier. Yet I still love him and miss him. But I feel like I have no emotions anymore. I cant express any sort of emotion but sit here on the computer staring blankly at the screen.. Secretly hoping he will contact me sooner or later.
Ronni_W Posted January 13, 2008 Posted January 13, 2008 Gosh, I hope this lasts. Id kind of like him out of my head for good. Sending strength and good wishes that it does last! Have a GREAT day, Kiri
Lee725 Posted January 13, 2008 Posted January 13, 2008 Nothing but a faint feeling of annoyance. Gosh, I hope this lasts. Id kind of like him out of my head for good. Excellent! - it is nice to read a positive post !!
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