does never mean never?

[JimMorrison]

She is 24 and Im 22. We have been great friends/sorta dating for 3 years, and were in a solid relationship for 2 years. I messed up a bit because I "made her feel guilty" for staying up past 10PM (she had work) but didnt really make bold demands, and I only did this a few times. Also I got angry because she never came up 60 miles to visit me at college all semester. She said she loved me and was trying her best, but I felt like she wasnt trying. These imbalances caused a lot of fighting about stupid stuff. I know I was wrong to have a metephorical tally sheet but thats what I was doing, but I don't think its an insurmountable problem by any means (this was during a time when I had been having to deal with other problems , and she knows this) For these reasons, and her not effectively communicating them to me, she broke up with me. I got her back very shortly but it was christmas time and a hectic time, and I added to the chaos, too much pressure for her, which lead her telling me "I just want you to understand we could never be back together. Im very angry with you and hopefully in the distant future we can be friends. " In the past, She's told me before that even if i cheated her, since she loved me so much, she'd probably take me back. She said she'd always love me. We meant the world to eachother and she was always talking about marriage. Also she has been losing a lot of weight lately and this may have something to do with it.

 

She knows she's been a bitch at times, and she knows I know the reasons of the imminent breakup. I am 98% sure that there is no other guy in the picture. At the end, I ended our talks with me being very amicable, not needy, and I ended it by saying 'just know im sorry' . And then said goodbye. I plan on NC for a while, maybe send her a short happy unbirthday card in a few months, but I can move on but it would be nice not to have to ultimately.

 

Since she said never, does that mean for sure never?

Edited January 12, 2008 by JimMorrison

[norajane]

YOu should believe it means never. Move on. You are so young and there are sooooo many women out there, why be so stuck on one that doesn't want you?

[s_n_d]

Never doesnt always mean never.

You never know what the future holds.

But you shouldnt EXPECT another chance with her. If it happens, it happens. But for now, you need to learn from whatever mistakes you might have made and try to focus on other aspects of your life..Work, School etc..

[sedgwick]

As much as it hurts, I'd say she's done you the favor of telling you in no uncertain terms that it's over, and the sooner you let yourself move on, the better.