getonwithlife Posted January 10, 2008 Posted January 10, 2008 Hey all, been a while since I posted, 6 weeks status post break up. Let me tell you it has been a struggle. Never felt this depressed. any way, broke down Last sunday and called / left a message for her, "Hi hope your well " and didn't hear from her. Then today I ran into her in the hospital cafeteria (purposefully, made two passes through, looking for her). she smiled approached me, I said hi and, hugged her (I am an idiot). We made small talk, then I left. She said she would "see me later" Got to my car, cried, then texted her.... ( quote " i purposefully looked for you in the cafe to say hi. Good to see you. Would like to catch up with you later. You?") I am an idiot. You guys, I miss her terribly. Im having a lot of trouble getting past this. Im pretty sure she has checked out completely. I fell hard for this girl. The more I told myself I didn't love her, the harder I fell. I was the typical door mat. Did everything I could for her. Let her live with me for a month between places (now i live with her ghost - everything in my place is a memory) Pressured her inadvertently. I lost control of myself. To make matters worse, did start trying to date. first date, girl got drunk, stayed with me because she couldnt drive (offered to take her home but would not let her drive) Hours later in the morning, woke up with her being "sexually aggressive" with me. Explained that i wasn't interested, but she continued to persist and I gave in (I am an idiot). Definately did not make things any better. Talked with her later in the day to tell her i was dissapointed in myself for letting this happen. She stated she forced the issue and was sorry - things are OK on that front. I feel so out of control right now. Is this normal? Should I try to establish friendship with my lost love. I want her in my life. Im so confused.
serendip Posted January 10, 2008 Posted January 10, 2008 I think everyone goes throught this But I suggest you do NC until you heal a little bit more....or when you can control yourself It does neither of you any good to be in this state
s_n_d Posted January 10, 2008 Posted January 10, 2008 We all act like that when we see/hear from our exs after a while. Trust me..Ive said alot of stuff after talking to him after a long time..I regret it now. I want to get back with my ex as well. Its out of our control though.
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