Memories&Dust Posted January 7, 2008 Posted January 7, 2008 Hi there, Firstly, I am bi-sexual and i'm in a same sex relationship, apologies if that offends anyone. Secondly, i'm in a fairly long distance relationship with my partner who is 11 years older than me (I'm heading towards 25)... And I'm having a lot of trouble reading her, to the point of utter distraction. We've been together in the region of 15 months, and to be honest, it's been rather rocky, mostly due to the fact that she seems to go hot and cold with me. I know I am prone to get anxious about things, and I mostly have myself is check with that, but confusion still reigns. She has broken up with me twice, only to beg me to come back to her... The second time I told her she should just leave it, but she begged and cried and promised change, so I thought I'd give it another go... Since then it's been ok, she has a real problem with her sexuality and therefore I am still a secret from pretty much everyone important in her life. It's something I am not happy about, but have kind of accepted (not sure that is a particularly great thing)... We managed to spend a week together before Christmas but it was strained due to outside pressures, but on the morning I was leaving she was very loving with me, kept saying she didn't want me to leave (especially since she was going on a 2 week vacation after Christmas), so I left on good terms, although still with a lot to work through in regard to our past problems. Anyway, she went away, telling me before hand how much she was going to miss me, how I'd be in her heart, and she would keep in contact. However, the holiday turned into a bit of a nightmare as she had to remain indoors amid rioting and violence. She flew home yesterday, a week early. The first couple of days she was away she was texting me to tell me she loved me, missed me, and on New Years Eve, I went out partying... And I sent her two very drunk (but very loving) texts... Well I heard nothing from her until I had texted on numerous occasions, when she finally replied to tell me she was safe and well, no pleasantries... I'd spent all day worried she was not safe... Anyway, since then, she has been back in touch, but the "I love yous" "I miss yous" have stopped, and she texted to say she was back in the UK, but didn't call, and hasn't really been in contact since... I don't really know what to make of this, I thought we were doing well and communicating better, and I've tried very hard to support her through such a frightening experience, but she seems to have disappeared off the radar... well, my radar... She has blogged about her experience, and facebooked, but has not called and has barely texted. Any advice in regards to this apparent ambivalence? Am I just reading too much into the situation?
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