melbar68 Posted January 4, 2008 Posted January 4, 2008 I am 40 years old and have been involved with a mm for about 6 months now. We didnt start sleeping together until we were seeing eachother for three months. the first three months we went to the movies, the park, the beach, just for walks or we would meet somewhere to talk and laugh, however of course eventually we started going to hotels. I have since fallen deeply in love with this man. I actually started falling for him before we slept together and according to him he did too. I also live with someone for 10 years, but had a sexless relationship for about 5 years this is why i went looking for someone else to have on the side, but had never done this before. The MM claims he was also looking for someone else because sexually his wife does not turn him on anymore ect... We clicked on the first date and i didnt expect to since i never gave anyone a chance. However we do not talk about me leaving or him leaving our SO as i am afraid to even ask then lose him and maybe he feels the same. We talk to eachother all day while at work Mon.-Fri 9-5 and sometimes on the weekends when he has time, as i have no relationship with my SO, we dont even sleep in the same room we dont talk and just share the bills nothing else, however i know his wife loves him and he has two small children 7 & 8 years old. They have been together for 10 years he is 42 and she is 34, however she does look much older than me and is very much over weight, i look much younger and just a bit overweight, not much and my girls are pretty much grown up 22 and 14 so i have alot of time to go out, but it bothers me that he barely has time and we have to sneak around. His wife got suspicious about him having an affair about two months ago thats when we couldnt see eachother weekly like we were doing and according to him she is doing everything to make things better between them such a clean what according to him she never did and cook and be physicaly closer to him. It hurts so much when we meet and its not always for sex sometimes we just spend time holding hands and hugging eachother, talking, it hurts when he walks away and goes into his car and i drive away because he is going home to her, but he text me messages all day telling me he loves me and misses me and is crazy about me and wants to hold me. i dont know how much longer i can take this because my heart tells me one thing and my head tells me another. I do at times feels guilty, but i am so happy when i am with him. we call out sick once a month to spend the whole day together and see eachother once every two weeks or once a week which ever he can get out to do, because i have all the time in the world once i get off of work. we do live a bit far from eachother about half an hour away. he tells me everyday that he wishes i worked closer or lived closer so that he come by to see me everyday. I dont know i am so confused and i fall more and more in love with him everytime i see him. we talk about everything, atleast i do i dont lie to him about anything as i have nothing to hide, i dont think he does either but i dont know if he is telling me what i want to hear or can he love two women. We have eachothers addresses, home numbers, job numbers ect. as i dont feel threatened by him or him by me. Please someone help me i want to stay in this relationship even if i am miserable only because im happy when i am with him. As for my SO i think he knows what is going on, but at this point we dont care about eachother and we dont have children together. I am so in love and confused and i dont want to break up a family or hurt anyone and i want to do the right thing, but i am so in love with man.
Jordane Posted January 4, 2008 Posted January 4, 2008 You posted this twice, you maybe need to cheak your other thread.
Author melbar68 Posted January 4, 2008 Author Posted January 4, 2008 i dont know how to remove this posted i dont even know how it posted twice
Owl Posted January 4, 2008 Posted January 4, 2008 You're getting responses on your other post...ignore this one for now, focus on the other, and this one will drop down as needed.
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