BrianG Posted January 1, 2008 Posted January 1, 2008 I have been having a really hard time dealing with the break up and guilt of screwing up with my ex girlfriend of 5 years (lived together), broken up a little over 2 months. So I figured tonight would be a fresh start for me beginning a new year. I felt sick to my stomach all night missing her and wondering if she was with someone tonight and seeing couples be affectionate all night. Even though I didn't feel like even going out I forced myself out to try and begin a new year and fresh start. I was mainly the blame for her breaking up with me (lied but never cheated). I have worked on myself so much and I have done a lot of good things since the break-up (counseling, cognitive behavioral therapy, volunteering at the local hospital terminal cancer ward). So as much as I tried to "fake it till you can make it" it was agonizing to trying not to call her. Anyways, on my way home my car breaks down on a major highway and I am stuck there for 2.5 hours to get a tow truck on nye. I finally just got home and my dad always says "you do the right things and the right things happen to you." I am just so emotionally drained from the break-up after not being able to see her and talk to her during thanksgiving, xmas, and new years now, and even though I screwed up I am trying to make things right. She was my best friend and love of my life and my life is crashing around me and i have been doing all the right things and sick and tired of my world and myself falling apart. I was so hoping this year would be my year and I am a mess that it is starting off this way without her to talk to.
Nomad1 Posted January 1, 2008 Posted January 1, 2008 Hey BrianG. I know how you feel, but keep doing the right thing. 5 years is a long time I know, and it may take a while for the memories to fade away, but you will get there. Trust me. Take care man Nomad1
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