BalancenLuv20 Posted December 31, 2007 Posted December 31, 2007 (edited) I can't believe im such an itiot...its been 3.5 months now and on 11/9 i went on nc with my ex. 3 weeks later she breaks nc and calls to see how im doing. a week later she calls crying on the phone and wants someone to talk to and wants to see me soon...i see her in person a week later and give her a big hug and she says shell call soon to hang out...she calls on xmas to wish me merry xmas...2 weeks elapsed since she said she wanted to hang out...i call her last night asking her if she wants to do something the next day and she says maybe and that shell call after she gets out at work at noon... next thing i know its 5 pm and no call...i call her and shes with her bf and says she forgot...i tell her that i cant believe she did this...i tell her shes too busy being selfish and being with her bf to give a crap and her response is to leave him out of it and that she admitted shes made mistakes and she has a lot of growing to do...i tell her i cant live like this uve been an ahole and put me through hell and back for months and GOODBYE and hung up... I guess I just felt lonely and though shed be cool to hang with, but sure enough she pulled this crap on me again. I let her immaturity and selfishness and heartlessness get the best of me. I cant believe how weak I am...i keep saying this is it, but something always happened to change that...just once just once I want to be able to live up to my promise of letting her go for good...She proved today once and for all that all she is now is poison in my life...tonight will consist of much crying and hurt, but now I need to let go of her for good no turning back ever again...so goodbye to the first love of my life who turned into the coldest human being within a matter of seconds...goodbye to a life of lies and incertainty and hello to a life where the sky is clear and the light can soak its warmth and truth into my battered heart and soul... Edited December 31, 2007 by BalancenLuv20
kymberann Posted December 31, 2007 Posted December 31, 2007 just let it be a reminder that that is why you are no longer with her!
tinke Posted December 31, 2007 Posted December 31, 2007 sorry for your situation and the hurt you must be feeling. look at it this way...how fortunate that if she was to turn on you again, she did it early on. you were able to see very early that she is indeed showing selfishness and insensitivity. appears that she is calling you at her whim....because she can! not much to be said for someone who takes advantage of vulnerability. this is a huge statement of her character! seems as she overtly has moved on, friendship may be a bit much to ask at this point. did she leave you? if so, her calls to you for comfort are unimaginable..why not direct her to her new man? give it time, i am sure you will find plenty interesting people to hang out with...she doesn't deserve your friendship, and you deserve better in a frienship other than old baggage...start anew. take care
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