Might Help Some People

[Fandabby]

k ive been reading peoples posts for some time now but finally decided to make an account to share my story ( i will give the whole story another time cause i just written it all out and my computer died lol and im like this close -- to smashing it to pieces lol)

 

well my gf was a complete ars*hole right, worst gf ever but she had her good points, we was together for 2 years and then on january the 4th ( this year) she dumped me for another guy ( she didnt get with him in the end cuz he had a gf and wouldnt dump her lol), out of the blue ( the 4th was are 2 year anniversary, ouch lol) so anyway, for 1 month, i did the whole, begging, crying, moaning,ringing,texting, emailing, checking facebook/myspace,drinking, thinkin about suicide,on msn 24 jus to see if shes online etc etc the full works, and after 1 month she said to me ''fu*k off and die, and never speak to me again'' so i did ( didnt die like lol) i didnt contact her at all and stopped checkin up on her, 2 months go by and she contacts me at 3 in morning drunk, and i was caught of guard but put her straight not to contact me ( even though i was buzzin inside) then she contacts me non stop for 2-3 weeks and in the end she comes out with '' i wanna get back together lets meet'' ( most people on here would love to here that and at the time i did) so anyway end of story right? noooooo lol i was so happy to get back with her when we got back together she didnt want to talk about anything, didnt say sorry or anything, i was so happy i never brang it up and life went on as if we didnt split up ( i dont mean in the good way either, i just mean we never spoke about it) but as time went by i noticed she was even more of an ar*ehole and more of a bad gf and her good points had gone, and she was just up her own ar*e even more now, so now lets go forward 7-8 months of being back together plus a holiday ( tha went bad lol) , 7 weeks and a day ago i wake up and i have a text from her, i read it and it says '' ive been thinking the last few days and i dont love you anymore'' and i text back '' is there another guy'' and i get a text saying '' yea, ive had feelings for him since last 2 weeks'' then i didnt bother asking who cause i wasnt really that bothered, then she texts me '' so can i still come around on saturday and talk'' i text back '' nope'' then she gets nasty and texts ''fu*k off then i hate you, my feelings were going for you anyway and its nothing to do with this guy that there gone! but you got nobody to blame but yourself, its all your fault, cya around mate!'' but it aint my fault i no that ( let me explain very fast, im a really nice guy, i did nothing wrong, i did everything for her, put it this way, if calsberg made bfs, id probley be the best bf in the world lol anyway back to story), so anyway reason it will help people this story is the bit im going to tell you now, i havent done anything that i did last time, havent even cryed or checked anything or spoke to her since that text or wanted to, why? cause i dont even love her anymore,i just thought i did, but now i realise it was the whole '' want what you cant have effect'' 1 hour after that text i went out n had fun like it had never happened, i feel 100% fine, i can think of her doing anything with guys, and it doesnt bother me, so my advice to LS members is , would you truthfully 100% really be happy if you and your ex got back? would you deep down be all happy again? trust me , somtimes you want sombody so much only cause you cant have them, but once you got them, your realise there not good for you, i havent spoke to the ex since that text and like i said, i havent even had the eurge too, i dont even go on msn or anything, but i no this for a fact, cause im a nice guy, she will soon see, the grass isnt greener on the other side(just like she realised last time), and will want me back, and i just cant waitttttttttttttttt for that phonecall, just to be like mike from my wife and kids , be like '' errrrrrrr ( do a lil dance).... na?'' lol but i now realise that she doesnt deserve me, and i have no feelings towards her at all, i actually hated her about a month ago, but now i just dont even have feelings towards her, only thing that gets to me is my own head every now and then, cause i argu with her in my head lol i ask her questions in my head, i get pissed off in my head, but i no thats cause i feel angry inside for getting back with her and for whats shes done, but i no that will pass, and im a true believer of karma, what goes around comes around, sometime in the future she will have her heartbroken, look back and think, i miss my first love, then she will cry and think, i must of hurt him bad (then she realise what she put me through and realise its not nice when the shoes on the other foot),let me leave you with this line ''the pain i went through, is her pain for the future'' ( you may think ive told you the wholeeee story here lol but i have just told you the surface, ill fill you in on everything in the future) ill drop a few more details here, shes 18 im 21, each others first loves, together nearly 3 years, both lost virginity to eachother, we was the firsts on everything, like first holidays had with bf gf, first this first that etc, erm her family absolutly loved me, her grandad and granny actually said to her the first time we broke up '' i seen him as the granson i never had, and im going to be truthful, i probley wont love any of your future boyfriends as much as ive loved him'' plus loadssss other nice stuff, plus we have loadsss good memorys and had stuff in common etc, anyways just thought id tell you all my story and give you the bad with the good, cause there is light at the end of the tunnel, and like i said, think real hard if you really want your ex back, cause i thought i did, but it tuk her to dump me again to make me 100% realise i dont want or need or love her, dont even like her,not even been a little upset, and remember the line i told you all up above, cause karma does happen, thanks for listening , ill post more on my story another time , and even thought i didnt need time to heal, its been 7 weeks and 2 days since that text, NC at all, and im still doing fine

Edited December 29, 2007 by Fandabby

[s_n_d]

Wow.

I really admire you.

I havent been able to go a day with NC. Its the hardest thing for me EVER.

But I guess thats because this woman was a b**** to you. You definitely dont deserve someone like that.

This man(my ex) was NEVER rude to me.. Even after we broke up.

I need some help!!

Deep inside, My heart tells me not to give up on him but my friends and family are telling me otherwise.

[Fandabby]

the main thing you need to do before you take on board any advice, is go NC, its hard at first ( for me on first break up ) and even if you keep yourself busy its still hard, but you really need to do it, cause if you really want him back your going to have to show him what its like to miss you, and to live his life without you in any form, thats the only way he will realise if he wants you back or not, but good luck and i hope it goes well for you