new boyfriend and ex .. any

[sweetie88]

hard decision ex and current boyfriend. This is long, read through. thanks =)

ok when i was fifteen my only guardian passed away .. and i was left on my own. Fortunately I had a wonderful boyfriend that supported me through it all.. he was romantic and caring (constantly brought with flowers to cheer me up)and left me with wonderful memories. His family was amazing towards me. We broke up (i with him) because my new guardian didnt want me to have a boyfriend and was preventing me from seeing him. He did start getting the wondering eye towards the end which really hurt me but he never cheated on me and left me with such powerful memories. I missed him right away and tried to get back with him but he was short with me and his best friend didnt like me and we lost contact. I missed him a lot over the years .. there was something powerful that stuck with my mind about him and our relationship and i always secretly in my heart wanted to give it another try. I finally accepted that it was over (or so i thought) and met another wonderful man who i have now been with for over 2 years. This person is sucessful, and wonderful and everyone thinks we are perfect for each other. We are from different cultural backgrounds and his family isnt the most supportive but we are happy. I trust that he only has eyes for me and I dont think he will hurt me. He also has the drive and ambition i love in a person. He is pratical for me in ever way. On christmas my ex contacted me and I found out he has cared for me all these years as I for him which he didnt know. He doesnt have a job but he wants to go to college. He lives 2 hours from me. We talked all night the other night and he is sorry for anything he did to hurt me. One thing i can say bad about my current boyfriend is he often thinks as a woman i talk too much but my ex listened to every word i said. He wants to be close friends and is respectful of my current boyfriend. He is open to anything in the future as well. I am quite confused .. my current boyfriend is away on buisness and now all this comes back. I wish i knew sooner my ex cared for me .. not when i am in the other best relationship of my life .. one that i hoped might end in engagement in the near future.. i can see myself having children with my current boyfriend. However this powerful force has always made me remember my ex throughout the years .. dispite who ive been with, and hes single now. My heart always draws me to him even though my mind knows my current boyfriend is the most pratical choice. I dont know how to go about making decisions on what to do in this situation .. any advice