Sanslatete Posted December 26, 2007 Posted December 26, 2007 [sIZE=3][COLOR=#000033]Because of you. Because of you, I let down my guard and loved without confines, I reached deep within myself and found the resource of my deepest emotions, they had lain dormant for the entirety of my life, never having been tapped, every ounce of love I was born with was released at once, in a fountain of earthly delight. Because of you, I felt things I had never known, and spoke words from deep within, all my thoughts and dreams, past, present and future, were revealed to you, I gave an intensity of trust unfamiliar to me, I had never felt secure enough, but to you I gave it all, I let go of my diffidence and honoured you with my soul. Because of you, my heart opened like an orchid to caress an insidious love, I believed I had found my true life partner, my walls came down around me, making me defenceless to the devastating blows that emotions could inflict, my eyes saw merely the beauty of you, not deep within where the hidden thoughts rest. Because of you, I experienced the highest plateaus of emotion, you were an opiate, and you flew me much higher than a trip on a number nine cloud or a magical rug, you were my rainbow, you brought me colour where once I had just black and white, bursting my heart every minute of every day, because I loved you so profoundly. Because of you, I had reason to feel myself worthy of tenderness, your caresses did that, a radiance shone through me, filling my life with brilliant light that gave me strength, I felt blessed for having found the one who loved me for who I was, not what, dreams were somewhere we visited together, we were entangled in our subconscious. Because of you, my words became dependable, I gave you my truth consistently, I didn’t repress the things I said, I tried to be real, and not lie to you by omission, I had someone who could look in my eyes and see the gentleness that is inside me, there was no one on earth who could lift my spirits like you and all that you were. Because of you, I grew blind or unwilling to admit to myself that things had gone bad, my eyes, ruled by the heart that you had crafted with love, did not want to grasp, but reality shattered my resistance and brought my dream life to a grinding halt, I was unprepared for the array of dire emotions that would soon tear my world to shreds. Because of you, my days are something I get through, conscious of my constant loss, feelings I had for you have been restricted to the place in my heart I rarely visit now, never again will I soar so high then fall to the ground losing everything on the way, I feel like I’ve had my best days and everything onwards is just something to endure. Because of you, love will never be allowed to thrive in me like when we were us, the pain is something I never want to endure again, my wounds are everlasting, memories are images I wish I still cherished, yet they have become a daily crucifixion, I loved you far beyond words and to the point of devotion, a love I wish would now perish. J.F. Dec 25 ‘07 [/COLOR][/sIZE]
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