enough crying 626 Posted December 25, 2007 Posted December 25, 2007 About me being abuse he went to anger mangerment an hasn't hit me since.now listen plz today we spoken an suppose to be working it out. now he says its okay for him to see other people but not me.now i plan on moving on with my life but he hurt me so much for so many years he's left me wounded you know.now i feel like i want him to hurt the same way i did.now i called him several times yesterday i knew he was layed up with someone.My thing is he munipulates women an i want him to feel how it feels to be hurt.now he think he some playa when he big ass coward all he do is hurt women i know alot about this man,an he took a big chunk out of heart...how am im suppose to sit here an let him keep doing this like he's mr.untouchable can't no women hurt him. This man promised me the world now running down on the chirp phone filled with womed playing them.Now he said he wanna work thinks out with me but i gotta sit down an wait till he finished sowing his wilds oats...who in the hell he think he is...now i been to much i cryed to much i love him but he needs to feel how it feels to hurt.There's alot he's not bein honest about an im waitin on the right time fry his ass!!! I been so stupid for so long an i still crave his dumb ass for some unknown reason. I know i have to work on my self esteem cause i let my self go over this man... but he really like we talking trying to rebuild what we had. How can we? When i was down an out for all these years he kept bringing me down.I started getting hi,lost weight,just got into a car accident it feels like im losing my mind in a sense im tryin to get past it now my emotions is all scattered one day im okay the next day im crying then happy the next my apartment is a mess so i keep out of there as much as i can .i mean i been goin thru this for quiet some time now.I even had a domestic violence case aganist him since last year 2006 got bad in april 2007 ,august 2007 i pressed charges went to court he went anger mangerment never hit me since. now its december an i never seeked councling i need to but dont really have the time i work a lot can't afford it im a single parent.I been lonely for a long time now an i seen one of my old friends i use to mess with like in 94-95 .we use to date its so ironic that i would ever run into him again. He is a good guy to but we lost contact cause i living with someone ..he was a thug an i let the good guy go.Now i want a good guy im tired of thugs i want something different i want a man who works an not into the streets...one thing i know men from the streets do nothing but wreck your life but i guess i take it as these are lessons never want a man from the streets cause he don't want one women....they will never settle no matter how old they get either trust me. I wish i can start from the beginning it would make more sense an maybe i get more responses also i don't like getting hit i loved that man he didn't always me that something that came out of nowhere...
sedgwick Posted December 25, 2007 Posted December 25, 2007 The way to find a better man is to better yourself. Can you go to school, get an education, get a good job? The one and only thing for you to do right now is to work on yourself. Find out that you can be happy on your own, without a man. Do something that makes you really proud of yourself. No woman deserves to be with a man who hits her, even once, EVER.
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